Vocal Training Room #2

Despite it being a little over a month ago, Jaejung remembers being told that he was set to debut like it was yesterday. He'd dawned an uncharacteristically wide grin when CEO Kwon delivered the news and he couldn't wipe it from his face the entire week afterwards. It was like his dreams were finally being realized— and much quicker than he'd ever expected. All that said, Jaejung knew he wasn't perfect, or at least he wasn't perfect to himself, so he continued practicing on a regular basis. Pretty much every day from 1 to 3 - with the mornings being taken up by his university classes - this particular vocal training room was his domain. He liked it because of the way the sun shone in at the perfect angle, never high enough to blind him as he scratched out imperfections on his sheet music or tried out new tonal clusters. Even today, he was hard at work writing new songs and revising old ones, lowly muttering the song lyrics in tune as he did so. After about a two hours of working, he grew weary of heavy thought and found himself just fooling around on the piano, playing random tunes until he eventually began playing to opening notes to Lee Seunghwan's "Flower." Eventually, he started singing as well, a soft tone to match the song's original vibe. Solo piano didn't do the magical, fairytale-like song nearly as much justice as it deserved, but Jaejung found himself continuing through with the song anyway.

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@☀ Seon Yein (Sunyoul) Using your diaphragm will help with the high notes. Will keep them steady, firm and strong

@☀ Seon Yein (Sunyoul) Since she did ask me, I'll do it
*slowly nods*

@☀ Seon Yein (Sunyoul) *listens and taps my foot against the floor*
I see what she means. You are a good singer but fall flat on the hit notes

@☀ Seon Yein (Sunyoul) (It's alright)

@☀ Seon Yein (Sunyoul) *blinks slowly*
Am I? I'm normally this way

@☀ Seon Yein (Sunyoul) *bites my tongue*
I want to see how you sound normally

@☀ Seon Yein (Sunyoul) *thinks for a few minutes*
There are a few ways to fix that

@☀ Seon Yein (Sunyoul) *examines your face then nods*
Alright then Yein. Is it your vocals that needs work?

@☀ Seon Yein (Sunyoul) *quietly walks in and bows my head slightly*
Yes. You must be that trainee Ms Kwon talked about

@☀ Moon Byulyi {Moonbyul} /gives out a blank stare when you said that, but doesn't anything afterwards

@☀ Kwon Bo-Ah {Boa} CEO-nim
I would like to talk to you after this session...as in, privately in your office
/says in a slight stern since I am very serious what I am saying

@☀ Wong Kahei {Vivi} @☀ Kwon Bo-Ah {Boa} @☀ Ahn Hyejin {Hwasa} -stares at everyone in silent before letting out a sigh-
can we just get it over with already? It's a big deal if we choose this song
but since Sajang-nim put a lot of confident in Vivi then I know she'll do well.
I'm not feeling well and if its alright, can I go first and record everything needed?

@☀ Kwon Bo-Ah {Boa} *she nods and stands up before brushing off her clothes*
Let’s do this
*she forces a smile onto her face*

@☀ Kwon Bo-Ah {Boa} *she sniffles and wipes her face to wipe away her tears before nodding*
Thank you...

@☀ Kwon Bo-Ah {Boa} *she just stares at you, almost in wonder that someone could treat her like this*
Y-you really think I can still do this?

@☀ Ahn Hyejin {Hwasa} You're welcome
/smiles gently

@☀ Kim Eunyoung {Cheetah} Maybe because I don’t deserve that? I don’t deserve love and respect. And anybody that knows me would agree with me. I’m the one least deserving of anything remotely like that. I...I’ve messed up okay? I know I have
*chuckles dryly*
I’m sure if Jisoo and Aria were here they could write a book on how much I’ve messed up. Moonbyul can tell you too I’m sure. And I tried...I tried to make things right. But I’m too messed up. I’m toxic. I...I don’t deserve any of this...I...I need help sajangnim
*feels tears fall down my cheeks as if a dam broke*
I can’t do this anymore. I ruin everything. Everything I touch...I couldn’t even save my-
*stops myself and curls up as I finally break down and cry*

@☀ Wong Kahei {Vivi} Thank you

@☀ Ahn Hyejin {Hwasa} Yes, I feel really sorry for you that you girls have to go through some rough changes
/smiles softly
I really meant it no matter what

@☀ Kwon Bo-Ah {Boa} No disrespect sajangnim but I wasn’t alienating her. I was simply telling her what I expect as her potential new leader. I just want what’s best for the girls. I don’t care about myself. But if you think that I’m a sweet girl then I respect that. I hope you’ll continue to have that image of me.

@☀ Wong Kahei {Vivi} *watches you and sighs*
It’s nothing against you. I just really want this group to do well. You can understand that can’t you?

@☀ Ahn Hyejin {Hwasa} /kept quiet with my mouth shut, but nods out of acknowledge while feeling myself go pale as a ghost

@☀ Kwon Bo-Ah {Boa} Of course not sajangnim. I meant no disrespect to your position nor your intelligence. However, and I’m sure you’ll agree, that as the leader of Pulse there are certain things that should be said aloud whether she knows them already or not.
*she closes her eyes for a moment to collect herself before sighing*
I trust your judgement but we won’t know how she is until she actually works with us. And I can’t let my girls get hurt again...they’ve been through too much.

@☀ Wong Kahei {Vivi} Moonbyul does as well, so we actually have two. I’m not sure about Min if I’m honest.
*shakes my head quickly*
It’s nothing. Don’t worry about it. Just realized how much we’ve gone through I guess. It finally hit me that we’re getting another new member again. I just...I hope it works out this time. I’m not sure how much more of this I can take.
*looks at you*
In all seriousness, you better be serious about this if you want to be in this group. We’ve gone through too much to have someone come in all half assed. I didn’t say anything when Jiho was replaced suddenly by Aria, or when Min replaced Jisoo. Since debut we’ve lost three members and as the leader I won’t let my girls get hurt again. So if you’re not serious about this please...don’t bother joining our group.

@☀ Ahn Hyejin {Hwasa} Oh
Alrighty then..that's good to know that a group has a compsoser or so
/notices your chuckle in a dry way
Are you ok, Hwasa ssi?

@☀ Wong Kahei {Vivi} It wasn’t really forever but it feels that way. So much has happened to us since we debuted.
*chuckles dryly*
I am. I used to make songs for other groups and solo artists as well as be a guide vocalist for songs before debuting.

@☀ Ahn Hyejin {Hwasa} Forever ago?
/smiles as I look at you after I heard you wrote thay song
You are a composer-songwriter too?

@☀ Kwon Bo-Ah {Boa} *she looks at you and nods in agreement*
It’s a pretty powerful song. But I’m sure she’ll be fine if you’re considering her for the group.