• park •

Oh ok *smiles returning back from those randomly lost eyes before making a face to the blued boop. He snorts lightly* what, and you still not younger than me? *chuckles then takes his ice cream and taps it on your nose* there better. Are there white smurfs in this alternate dimension? *teases tilting his head. But when your lips were blue, he smirks amused* ah ok bubble candy? Cotton gum? And what if I kiss you like that? Will my lips turn blue too? *leans forward slightly up to touch his lips to your ones*

*He takes a first good taste of his ice cream, observing you.* I am just teasing you. *There must be a devil sitting on Taehyung's shoulder, whispering because out of nowhere, he scooped a tiny bit of blue ice cream on his fingers, and booped your nose.* Boop, now you are a smurf. *The playful glint in his eyes makes him glow. He was happy, and relaxed, just thoroughly enjoying your presence. Admiring your flushed expression. * That's right, yes. *He the ice cream, his lips blue.* But this one is not really a bubble gum, something in between.

Losing memories… *he purses lips in thought, remembering something then returns with a heart-lipped thinner smile* eyy I’m not that old~ I just assumed I guess and forgot the rest from how we act. I’m used to it by now *his eyes slightly widen with reddening ears as you part his hair then just stare at him. His breath catches in his throat at the way you looked at him but he swallows out a chuckled forced casual* …wh..at… *before his ears dimmed again. Ignores the compliment by focusing on the ice cream instead* ah ok so sometimes it’s pink and sometimes it’s blue? Funny, I guess I’ve seen that… *widens eyes pointingly* oh! Cotton candy’s blue and bubblegum’s pink. My bad, I got them mixed up~

Yeah? I told you already, but looks like you are losing memories. *He wiggles his eyebrows, teasing.* Your brain must be older. *He laugh, combing a hair out of his face.* Oh I like Hobi it is so cute! *He poked your cheek.* For some reason it really fits. *He stares at you for a moment, observing sunlight moving over your face, making you glow.* You are so handsome, you know Hobi? *He tries the nickname, happy with a sound of it.* It depends, sometimes it is pink, sometimes its a mix of both and sometimes is just blue. *Shrugs, taking his ice cream gratefully.*

*widens eyes* you’re older?! *laughs teasingly, nudging you. Then his eyes widen slightly with red ears* o-okay hahaha maybe not just hoseok either. What about just…hobi? *nods smiling* that’s what people in my university dance team called me. Hoseok sounds so … *laughs rubbing his nape* intimate?
*hums* thought bubblegum was pink… *smiles to the store person* you heard him, two scoops of those two. Me just mint choco

*He chuckles, turning his head to the side.* Finally remembering that I am opder, huh? *Laughs, squeezing you hand.* Okay Hoseok, I shall reserve the hyung card for special moments. Perhaps I will get more kisses this way? *He nudges you lightly.* For me, I want two flavours and If I am guessing correctly the blue one would bubble gum?

*he hums then smiles, starting to also trust you. Especially as he had always tried to hold you off but now, he’s smiling and giving you warmer eyes just a little more now* fine but hyungie’s something like what all my dongsaengs call me. Just call me hoseok *smiles* but hoseok Hyung works if you wanna convince me to buy you stuff~ *taps your nose* what the blue one for?

*He feels so light around you, no longer needing to pretend to be all serious. * Yes, I am. Strawberries are great, the season for them is coming up. *When you stopped at ice cream shop, he stopped you, shaking his head.* Hyungie, I invited you, I am paying! *He look at the flavours and pucked two. * Strawberry and the surprised blue one.

*he laughs smirking with a lifted brow, amused but just shaking his head as he lets you swing our hands* cute, you a strawberry boi *teases nudging you before we reach the ice cream place, pulling out his wallet* hi! Two ice creams, one mint choco and *turns to taehyung* strawberry or?

@★ jung hoseok *He pulls you toward a park, swinging your hand and laughing softly when you scold him.* Strawberry and whatever crazy flavor there will. I feel adventurous.

@♢ lee jaewook Right...its almost like those fairytale with the trapped princesses..
/a soft chuckle falls from my lips at the reference before I'm giving you a sweet smile at your words/
I wish I knew the answer to that..
/gaze just shifting to look at the vendor with curious eyes when you buy the seeds. Taking the small bag into my hands making sure to examine it closely before I'm looking at the pond in excitement. Opening the bag as I start to move closer to the ducks that are in the water. /
Is it best to throw the seeds at then or just close enough?
/questions while already squating down as I eye the birds that are slightly further in the water unsure of how close to get./

@♡ cha eunwoo ᵇᵘᵗᵗᵉʳᶠˡʸ I understand, the mansion has strict rules about going out and— I get it. The feeling of wanting to see what's beyond walls.
/a chill run through my spine at the remembrance of my predicament just weeks ago but luckily, your hand keeps me grounded and I manage to focus more on the present/
Anyway, I still don't understand why you don't get out often. You're a pretty nice boyfriend.
/honestly remarks as we arrive at a seed vendor, purchasing two bags for each of us before leading us down the pond/
Here's yours.
/hands you a pack then opens mine/

@♢ lee jaewook /eyes lighting up when you mention seeing the inside just to blink a few times when the helmet is suddenly being taken off. I had completely forgotten about it. A hand raising to ruffle at my dark locks before letting them fall back into place as I look over at you once more/
Feeding the ducks? That sounds like fun.
/leading you take the lead as we enter the park, I grip onto your hand slightly more as my eyes start to wander, not wanting to accidentally get lost./
I knownits a bit childish how I may be acting and I apologize. It's just you don't get this opportunity very often...

@♡ cha eunwoo ᵇᵘᵗᵗᵉʳᶠˡʸ /turns off the engine, my hands quickly reaching forward just in case you stumble, a pleased scoff soon leaving my lips when I notice that you're more excited than I expected/
Wait 'til you see its inside.
/comments in an amused tone, letting you pull me once I take off my helmet/
Careful, alright? Let's leave this one first.
/skillfully takes off your headgear with one hand and leaves it on the bike, my feet leading us further the park afterward/
Feeding the ducks is pretty popular around here. If you want, we can buy some seeds and see them off.

@♡ zhu zhengting ʰᵘᵐᵃⁿ /hearing the choices you listed out as I held your hands, in the name of sanitising, I gave a blink and flickered my gaze up towards you when I felt your fingers interlocking with mine. Following your gaze, I sensed you leaning forward towards me. Widening my eyes at the brief peck you gave, my lips parted slightly at the unexpected yet very appreciated gesture of yours. Stunned from the action, I straighten my back, letting my eyes roam around your facial features before subconsciously my lips, to chase the soft sweetness you left. Hearing you clearing your throat as your hands retracted from mine, I lifted up my hand to wrap around your nape before craning my neck and leaning forward with my head tilted to a side at the last second to return the affection you shown with a firmer and more passionate kiss. Melding against your tiers a couple of times, I leaned back, gliding my wet muscle along my upper lips, pretending to think before giving my reply.
Hmm, I’d have the cheese sandwiches first~

@★ kim youngdae I~ brought~... Cheese sandwiches.. Chips..we have plain salt flavor and we have lemon chilli flavor... And~ we have chocolate bites for something sweets. *my voice drags as I peek into the basket to recall what did I prepare for the picnic and list them out for you then looks up when you take my hands into your wet once with the sanitizer. I watch you with expressed amusement while hiding away the heart flutter your action caused me, biting my inner cheeks to grin idiotically till the wetness slowly rubbed away but I discreetly and gently closes my fingers over your hand to prevent you from letting go already. Darting my gaze between your eyes, I inhale deeply as I impulsively push my head forward to press my lips firmly on yours for couple of seconds before tearing myself away to clear my throat*
So uhh snacks- what do you want? *retracts my hands after while biting my lip but it doesn't help in hiding my smile this time around*

@♡ zhu zhengting ʰᵘᵐᵃⁿ /watching you taking out the items from the basket, my eyes flickered up towards you, giving you a subtle nod of my head.
What snacks did you bring?
/peeking over again towards the basket, I accept the small bottle of sanitizer, uncapping the opening before intentionally applying a generous amount on my palm.
Oops-
/my eyes shot down to my hand before I quickly close the cap with a click and rub my hands together to sanitise my hands. Lifting a cheeky grin and feeling the excess amount, I reached for your hand to share the gel while creating a moment to hold onto your hand again, with an excuse of practicing safe hygiene.

@★ kim youngdae *noting your attention to tidy details, knowing well how perfectionist you are by now. I watch you endearingly with passing yet lingering thought of how long did I know you for- how did I even know another being well and have interest in knowing more, all feel bizarre and unbelievable. I'm brought out of my trance when you ask for sanitiser to which I sit up straight and fish in the basket to take out the sanitiser and wet wipes as well to have them ready on the mat for when needed*
Yep, and wet wipes as well. Snack? *questions while the basket is still open, ready to hand you when if you want*

@♡ zhu zhengting ʰᵘᵐᵃⁿ /feeling your grip loosening as we approached the spot, I opened the mat before laying it over the open field, leaving ample space for us to be secluded yet public at the same time. Smoothening the mat to make it as even as possible, I stood up to check on the alignments, making sure it’s perfect as I watch you stepping into the mat soon after. Following you, I took off my shoes before arranging them along the hems of the mat and joining you when I saw you patting a space next to you. Taking a seat down beside you, I turned to you and opened my palms.
Did you bring the hand sanitiser?
/I glanced towards the basket before directing my gaze back towards you, looking expectantly.

@★ kim youngdae *looks toward where you are pointing to see the secluded spot, I smile and without any further words, I tug you with me towards it. Once we reach next to the tree and bushes, I make sure we are farther from the bushes as the thought of insects make me nervous. I let go of your hand to allow you to place the mat down, holding the basket in my hands till you do so and place it on the matt before I pull my feet out of my shoes one by one to settle on the mat and pat the spot next to me*

@♡ zhu zhengting ʰᵘᵐᵃⁿ /finally getting to spend time with you after a long workday, I was surprised when you suggested to go to the park this late in the night. Feeling the warmth of your palm on mine and our shoulder lightly brushing against each other as we walk around the area, I couldn't help but grasp onto your hand a little tighter, having no intentions to hide our physical contact ever since we made it quite official in front of my family. Carrying the mat with the other hand, I glanced towards you as I watched you seemingly looking around for a spot to settle down. A pro of heading out to the park at night is that we avoid the scorching heat of the afternoon sun and the crowd, so any area in the park is perfect for the picnic.
Shall we sit there?
/I pointed towards a space where there is a tree and surrounding bushes, thinking that it is quiet and cozy enough for us to settle at.

@★ kim youngdae *with snack basket in my hand and a mat in your hand, my free one clasping around yours as we make our way into the the park, walking amidst the grassed surroundings against the paved area while I scan around for the farthest and coziest spot to rest at all while mentally very hyperaware of my suggestion of the date, how Im initiating a date for the first time with anyone, added to the endless firsts taken by you. Knowing my "scheme" and "ulterior motives" of the date, to have an intimate and romantic date with you out in the open space of nature and amidst the tranquility of the night, I never thought i'd reach this point of being comfortable and confident in romantic dates with anyone- even with you when i already knew I caught feelings, not expecting us to be at this point*

@♢ ten I said leave me alone!
I tried to pull the blanket off me as I tried desperately to jerk my hand away. I felt my heart racing along with my mind, more tears running down my cheeks as I growled again and yelled
Home isn’t home anymore! You ruined it! You did… you…. You don’t care about me… so leave me alone!
I jerked my wrist away and moved to get off the icy bench as I practically ran toward the street hope I could cross it to get away from you

@♡ lucas wong ᵈᵒᵍ when you growl at me, i barely flinch. not when i know you. not when i know you would never hurt me compared to how i have hurt you.
lucas-- lucas stop! stop hurting yourself!
i hurry to reach out to stop you, letting out a shaky breath as my grip tightens at your wrist to stop you. panic, worry, anxiety begins eating through me, even moreso when i feel just how cold you are as i begin to wrap you up in the blanket i brought with me.
lucas- please... please- lets go back home.

@♡ kim jongin ᵇᵉᵃʳ he rolled eyes as both of his boys teamed up, playfully rubbing vivi's tummy. 'now who is a good boy?' sehun leaned to gently ruffle jongin's hair too, being rather playful, before his eyes moved down on the puppy once more. he leaned for the basket and took out the snacks, feeding some of them to the cloud. 'just not too much, you are already fat.' he teased the puppy as if he could understand him.

@♢ ten The cold was starting to make my fingers and nose burn from the chill but I remained there hitting myself in the face, pulling at my hair and crying like a child that was throwing a tantrum. But I was heartbroken, I was just rejected by the one person I wanted to love me and want me and now I was alone. I can’t be alone. Alone with my thoughts and worries and doubts… but I was. I was thinking about every moment you seemed bothered to have me around and most were cooked up in my mind thanks to my sorrow but I still allowed it to flow through my thoughts. But when I heard your voice my head snapped up and my teeth showed as I growled like a feral dog and yelled
Get away from me!
As tears ran down my cheeks and my teeth kept showing
Leave me alone!

@♡ lucas wong ᵈᵒᵍ the longer i stay out, the more i begin to worry. the more the panic begins to grow into a fit of anxiety and distress. this wasn't supposed to happen. i had everything under control. i had the situation, the distance, my *emotions* under control and yet-- everything began spiraling like a greek tragedy... but even antigone would rather search for her missing husband than bear the thought of her husband being lost without a proper burial.
i continue to search for you, desperate, calling for your name and asking around for you until i stumble into the park. it's quiet, there's no one around but the street lights and the stillness of snow despite the city surrounding the park. but i walk in. quiet, still, breathless as i cast one last look around the park before they land on you. sitting on a snow covered bench. and my heart quickens. my heart aches. and i find myself immediately running to you.
lucas!

@♢ ten I could feel the cold air hitting my face and the chill caused my tanned skin to flush red from the temperature difference when I lifted my head and looked at the falling snow. My eyes were blank as the tears trickled down my cheeks. My fears and worries that had been eating me up from the inside were true, it was all true. My master didn’t care about me… he didn’t want me, he never wanted me and now I was sitting on a snow covered bench, hoping the snow and the cold would force my system to deactivate, to freeze my circuits so that I was unable to be repaired. I hated this, I hated this feeling and I hated myself as I looked down at my tempting hands and then started hitting myself in the face, screaming in frustration before I started sobbing again

@♡ lucas wong ᵈᵒᵍ (( warning: thread contains topics of self-deprecation and self harm. you have been warned! ))

it hasn't even been 24 hours and that ing snake has done more trouble than good.
i hiss. wrapping my black coat tighter around my frame, blanket in arm as i chase you down. looking down at the snow to follow your footprints-- but as i'm lead deeper into town and footprints begin to disappear and meld into other footprints, i begin to panic. my breath catching in my throat.
lucas... lucas!!
i begin to call for you, panic fully settling in my body. 'maybe if you’re lucky this one will just get hit by a car or something…' no. *no*. nononono. this was his fault. this was taemin's fault, not ten's.
lucas! pup! lucas, please- answer me!
*it was ten's fault.*

sweat dripped down my face along with my tears. The pain in my chest forced my mind into overdrive as well. I couldn’t think, I couldn’t speak, I couldn’t only cry as I stumbled toward a bench in my torn sweats after jumping over the gate of the mansion
He doesn’t… he’s doesn’t want me… he… he doesn’t want me around… he doesn’t care about me… I’m… I’m not special… I’m not… I’m not… I’m nothing
I murmured and covered my face in my hands and felt my whole body tremble as I started crying
I… I want to be good. I want to be good.