ㅤᴅᴏᴏʀ ⋮ B23

@❛ jaemin n。 her heart aches, she was sure of it the moment his eyes softened at the sight of her once he entered. it was that gaze of longing after a day's struggle, yet in this case, struggle was an understatement; this was his past coming to haunt him. "and things will continue to be fine. he's not going to ruin anything, baby. you and i will make sure of it," she whispers this profusely, but even she was unsure of the gifted future ahead. her finger hooks just under his chin to garner his attention, and perhaps the sight of tears glistening over his lash line is what has her almost crumbling. "he is bad and baby, i promise he can't hurt you."

@❛ heejin j。 for a long time it’s felt to be him comforting her. yet now, as she presses a chaste kiss to his forehead he feels for the first time that he is being taken cared of, comforted. and it touches him. “all my life, you know.. i always thought my father would be bad. like my mom.” he sighs shakily, tears touching his eyes for the first time. “but he doesn’t look it. he looks.. nice. well-off. fine. but i know he’s bad, because he left me here. i just- i just don’t know why he’s come back to ruin my life again,” cries jaemin. “things were.. things were just fine.”

@❛ jaemin n。 she pulls up his blanket to meet over his shoulder, seemingly shielding the two from whatever troubles them—the return of his potential father definitely counting. with this, she also presses a soft kiss to his crown, knowing just how much he'd resent him all this time. "if he tries to contact you, you can block his number," she offers. "...it's okay, blue."

@❛ heejin j。 at her question that he can’t quite answer for himself, he furrows his brows deeply to display his frustration. “i.. i don’t know. i just left.” he takes a deep breath, his lower lip quivering ever so slightly. “he said he’s been looking for me. he wanted my phone number so i just gave it to him to make him go away,” he sighs, feeling like a stupid little kid afraid his own father again.

@❛ jaemin n。 "uh huh," murmuring, she follows along without missing a single beat, her palm soothingly rubbing over his shoulder. but, she stills in her spot, that similar anxiousness crawling back up her spine. a band of questions run through her mind, but instead of bombarding him, she lulls him closer. "i—what did he want, baby?"

@❛ heejin j。 laying here in bed with her, it almost feels as though his worries from earlier in the day had simply faded away. “i was in the university parking lot earlier, about to leave. then, i met someone.” he sighs, frowning. “a man. he said.. he said he’s my dad. you know. that one that left me with my a drug addict mother,” he scoffs.

@❛ jaemin n。 although she's supposed to comfort him, she can't help but feel herself lax within his embrace, undoubtedly knowing that his abrupt call bewildered her. legs of hers seek purchase around his waist, hugging his head. "something strange?" now, her mind fleetingly fills with a multitude of possibilities. "what was it?"

@❛ heejin j。 in her hold, jaemin feels himself naturally relax once more, his tensed muscles calming with her touch. “baby,” he moans out once again, arms reaching out to grasp her. “you’re here, i need you.” his breath catches in his throat as he lays both of them down on the bed. “something.. strange happened today.”

@❛ jaemin n。 she'd been pooled within the spread of his blanket just as he's arrived, and immediately, she's yanking it from her lap, arms already coming to curl around his neck. "baby," she murmurs, her fingers naturally threading through his blue tresses. "i'm here."

@❛ heejin j。 when jaemin enters his apartment he locks the door behind him, drops his bag on the table, then heads for the bedroom. he opens the door to find his lover nestled in his sheets. “baby,” he immediately relaxes at the sight of her, eyes going soft.

@❛ heejin j。 as she reaches out to him, her familiar touch on his cheek, a gentle smile spreads across his mien. hopefully, she could understand the words he was trying to convey to her, even if his delivery was less than conceivable. "okay, honey. as long as.. as long as you're okay, and comfortable. i would never want to do anything that puts that at risk," he says as he reaches out to her, fingers gently grasping her chin before pulling her in to a kiss. glad to have finally been able to express these trepidations that had occupied his mind since that moment she originally revealed herself to him. "then let's go on our picnic, love."

@❛ jaemin n。 she's straightening in her posture as he shakes his head, further explaining what he'd meant in terms of their life. admittedly, she didn't think he'd put so much thought into what would stun her in midst of their shared , but seeing how he conveys these worries to her with much deliberation and trepidation, it only encourages her to provide him comfort in the heart of her words. her vacant hand reaches to cup his cheek, drawing him in just a tad closer. "i know you want me to be comfortable, i know that you care for me to great lengths, which is why i'll let you know about it later when i think about it, okay? i promise. if anything makes me remotely uncomfortable, i'll tell you. as for the choking and degradation, those are alright with me. it's not going to make me freak out or panicky, i'll be fine."

@❛ heejin j。 when she comes to rest her chin upon his shoulder, a slight smile spreads across his lips, once again amazed at the simple tranquilizing effect she had on him, able to calm him without words. though she reassures him that everything he does is fine, he shakes his head. "i'm glad that everything has been fine. but.." he trails, pursing his lips as he deliberates his following words in his head. "things like.. choking, and degradation. those are kind of.. out there. just tell me anything that you wouldn't like, and if you can't think of them now, then please consider it and let me know. whenever. my goal is for you to be comfortable." still it pains him to think that someone so strong, his marshmallow, had been subject to such mental and physical torture. but from now on, he would do everything in his power to prevent her from feeling such a way ever again.

@❛ jaemin n。 his touch, once more, makes her relax in her spot, the tension in her shoulders dissipating as soon as it came, squeezing his hand as he approaches the topic at hand with careful treads, in which she appreciates. and as she's relayed to him when she'd first open up her wounds to him—before him, anyone she'd come across only treated her as a mere survivor, and she didn't want that from him. so, her thumb brushes over his backhand reassuringly, leaning forward to perch her chin atop of his shoulder. "that's sweet of you, baby. thank you for wanting to talk about this with me," she whispers, kissing the curvature of his shoulder. "i trust you. i know you aren't going to hurt me and i'm not scared of you, that's why i'm alright with the stuff we've done so far. you aren't triggering any bad memories, you aren't doing anything i don't want you to do, believe me."

@❛ heejin j。 "it's not anything bad," jaemin reassures, immediately recognizing her nervous tick as well as the change in her demeanor. fingers reach out to grasp hers, interlacing their fingers in that natural way of theirs. "you told me last time about your.. situation." he hesitates, not wanting to make her uncomfortable. "i want to ask you about anything you don't want me to do. i have a tendency to... get ahead of myself in bed. and i.. i don't want to do things that you won't like, or that will have bad memories for you." fleetingly, his mind flickers to earlier when he had tugged at her hair without permission. he recalls things that he had witnessed or heard of: her boyfriend choking her, touching her without want. the last thing he wanted was to accidentally scare her, or worse, give her a reason to fear him.

@❛ jaemin n。 "it's both a blessing and a curse to be attracted to them, yet wanting them off of you." she says, lifting her (his) shirt up slightly for him to button that of her shorts and run her fingers through her hair. as he finishes, she's almost reaching up to embrace him, to completely jump in his arms until he's guiding her off the edge of his bed, tone serious. this alarms her for a split second, eyebrows furrowing in anxious curiosity. her arm raises to scratch at her collarbones, an evident nervous tick of hers, as she nods. "yeah, of course. what's on your mind?"

@❛ heejin j。 her comment regarding his button-ups causes him to chuckle, amused at her confession of being easily roused by such a garment. "i like my button ups though? it's not my fault you're super attracted to them," he laughs, though it is soon sobered by her following comment. sliding her shorts back up her legs, jaemin buttons them once again with nimble fingers. "oh, that's right," he says, suddenly serious as he sits the two of them down on the bed. something had been on his mind recently, and perhaps this was the best time to express his thoughts. "baby, before we leave, can we talk about something?"

@❛ jaemin n。 [] NO YOU'RE FINE AHAHA I HAVE THOSE MOMENTS TOO DON'T U WORRY

his first two buttons that guarantee his collar to be neatly tucked, she refrains from threading them together for the sake of just seeing him—hair tousled and nearly sweaty, and sports a cheeky smile his way. "good. and i meant what i said, i'm getting rid of your button ups. maybe you can wear them when i'm on my period and i'm not tempted to.. take it off of you." she mumbles the last bits, though she's sure he can hear, thinking back to earlier of her hurried frustration with his shirt. "you know me. i'm not too open with expressing my ual needs," she says, nudging him at sight of his wink. as he holds her bottom garments out for her, she's carefully stepping into them, helping them up the slope of her legs. "and you should've known that you looked hot, perhaps you were purposely seducing me, hmp."

@❛ heejin j。 [] "sliding it back around his shoulders does he nod, along with a light nod" WHAT WAS I ON SORRY HAHAHA

he doesn't miss the roll of her eyes but rather chooses to ignore it, sporting a smug smile displayed across his countenance instead. "well, you have me. and what's mine is your's so yes, you can have all of my clothes." her next words however, draw a boisterous laugh from him as he leans down to retrieve his jeans and slide them back up his legs. "yes. that would have been a better form of communication. it would have been easier when i was just in the towel," he smiles as he redoes his belt, but not before throwing a wink in her direction. when he finishes getting dressed, jaemin reaches to find her bottoms. kneeling, he gestures her to step into them along with her .

@❛ jaemin n。 [] JOHNNY'S HAVING A ROUGH TIME OKAY :PENSIVE: :FIST:

at his response, she's playfully rolling her eyes, concluding to herself that he must've fancied the idea of those around knowing he's the one making her run absolutely wild, unrelentingly ing her into her euphoria. and perhaps, she does too, for them to know she was his. "paying in kisses? well, i think i'd have your entire wardrobe by now." she jokes, watching as he parts to retrieve his shirt, allowing her to repeat her earlier actions with ease. and at his words, her cheeks are heating, a much more drastically different demeanor than that minutes ago. "well, was i supposed to just walk up to you and say, 'hey, you look sort of really y and i want to give you a before our picnic.'?"

@❛ heejin j。 [] neighbors aka johnny HHAHAH

"that's okay, let them hear you," he chuckles, clearly unabashed and unaffected by the same worries. rather, he entertains himself by stroking up her sides, enjoying the feel of her beneath his hands. "i don't mind, as long as you pay for them with kisses." he sits up after she finishes rubbing their noses together, standing to search for his discarded shirt. sliding it back around his shoulders does he nod, along with a light nod. "yes please. if you had known you were going to seduce me, why did you even button it in the first place, tsk." it had surprised him in all, how quickly the situation had escalated, not that he was bothered by it.

@❛ jaemin n。 "i feel like your neighbors heard me." she says, obviously bashful in her wake as he grips at her waist gently, in which her hands come to smooth over them in the softest of ways. she captures the way he gazes over her—he loves the way she looks in his shirt, inevitably tiny as the hems pool at her thighs. and luckily for him, she loves the way she feels in it with his scent washed over her. "i might take more of your clothes, if you don't mind," she murmurs with a shy smile. "i think i'll try to manage the walk for our picnic. should i redo your buttons?" she, too, emits a laugh, grazing their noses together intimately,

@❛ heejin j。 as she cleans him without his asking, a few residual moans leave his mouth, still adjusting to the feel, the mere idea of her lips around him. it would definitely be something he would need to get used to—and now, with their foreheads pressed against each other in a familiar position, he definitely can. "you asked for it," he chuckles lowly in response. "if you're sore i'll carry you everywhere." his hands come to rest at her hips over the fabric of his shirt. god, the imagine of ing her in his shirt would forever be ingrained in his mind. "is it picnic time?" he laughs.

@❛ jaemin n。 [] oh right, goldfish memory bro LMAO

the tip of her tongue glides over the head of his , flicking and swirling until his voice reaches a certain point in which he'd provoke his own —with this, her lips wrap around his girth, taking in the way his pleasure shoots into that of her cavern. she swallows each load he lets into , the mere taste of his earning him a resounding moan from . she's sure to clean him diligently, the sweetness of their mixed secretion pooling at her tongue as she reaches to hold his hand, straightening to meet his face. "you taste nice, baby," she murmurs, looking to rest her forehead to his. "i feel like i'm going to be sore, thanks to you."

@❛ heejin j。 [] damn let him take off the first :pensive: LMAOAOA

it is a risque question, a line that they have teetered but never crossed, yet jaemin breathes a sigh of relief at her quick agreement in the form of nods. with a few last s does he pull out from her warmth, sounds of her wetness filling the space as he does so. in a swift movement he tears the off, tossing it with accurate aim into the waste basket a few feet away. immediately she kneels before him again, taking his into her lips with great fervor, and jaemin tilts his head back with a sharp moan. his hand works at his length as well, and with the aid of her pretty roseate lips and tongue, he soon finds himself her name as he reaches his high, flying out in spurts. chest heaving as he comes down from his high, his hand comes down to brush her hair from her face, and a smile graces his expression. "good job, baby."

@❛ jaemin n。 she's shaking against him, hitched breaths to match as he allows her to ride out her , coating his in that of evidence of their . his praises only earn him a barrage of scattered kisses over his neck, not even minding the sweat seemingly trickles down his column in the meantime, as she half expects for him to reach the peak of his with her. though at his request, she's nodding, looking to pleasure him in every way possible that he'd want. so, as her walls tighten around his in the last of her own , goosebumps dance alongside her arm just as she emits a small gasp from the loss of his fill in her cavern. before he knows it, she's leaning down on her knees once more, her face nearing his . in small does her tongue peek out to swirl around the tip of his head, being able to taste her own , despite it being purposeful for him to relish his desires. " for me, baby."

@❛ heejin j。 he feels it, her oncoming as her walls squeeze around the length of him, and ushers it closer to her with every . lips pressed against the nape of her neck which has now collected a layer of sweat from their activities, jaemin speaks, voice a low whisper in her ear as though the words were for her and her only. " for me, baby, let go." and she does so only a few s later with a proud moan of his name, causing jaemin to burst into an amused smile though his builds in his stomach from the way she squeezes him mid-. "good job, princess. you did so well," he praises. though he continues pushing into her for the sake of allowing her to ride out her , his own begins to flourish in his stomach. "baby, baby," his voice comes out though its characterized by heavy breaths. "can i come in your mouth?"

@❛ jaemin n。 he ushers her up, her back now pressing against his chest in a newfound position that has her nearly viewing stars in the way he s her; all in the right spots, hand tugging so goddamn pleasurably, and his impure utters into her ear. "i-i'm close, baby," she moans out, the heat that perspires off of her petite figure only emanating off to his. that twinge in her stomach doubles in its size as he continues slamming into her, his own barrage of grunts driving her to that high. her stifled groans are presently audible, heightening in its volume as she reaches her . ", , jaemin—" in the midst of her euphoric relief, her head throws itself back onto his shoulder, barely breathing out as her own hot pleasure draws from out of her heat, shuddering against his build with a whimper.

@❛ heejin j。 at her encouragement, jaemin continues to push his length in the direction she pleads, hips shifting at a certain angle to provide her the most pleasure he can. her words cause a cocky smirk to make home across his countenance, staining his visage with carnal desire as he s into her repeatedly without a single bump in pattern. "i want you to for me. all over my , show me how much you love it," he hisses out as he tugs her up by her hair, pressing the backside of her body to his chest. "scream my name when you . tell me whose this is." the words which leave his lips are unfamiliar between the two of them, though they leave electric sparks in the air.

@❛ jaemin n。 the way he unrelentingly pounds into her, refusing to hold back (just as she'd request), is ample enough to have her arms almost weaken on his mattress, lowering her head in attempts to conceal that of her breathy sighs that leave her lips. but as he encourages this, having a real inclination to how loud and lewd her voice can be for him, she voices out in a breathless moan. "your feels so good in me, baby. ," she whimpers, and with his tugs onto her hair, she welcomes the slight pain she receives from it. and as he strikes her sweet spot once more, she mewls out, "right there, jaemin. right there."