⠀➴ seungcheol's

*sighs*
I guess I won't be seeing him tonight...

*ruffles my hair then rubs my face*

*inhales deeply*

He won't completely ignore me...

He'll at least text back...

*put my phone aside, frowning deeply as my eyes well up with tears*

*grabs my phone to scroll through pics of sunghoon, smiling sadly*
He's so pretty

*rolls over onto my back, staring up at the ceiling*

How am I gonna make it through this cycle

*rubs my face on the pillow and frowns*
His scent is fading already...

Does he not want to talk to me?
*Mumbles with a frown*

*grabs my phone and stares at it*

Not even a response

*flops down face first on the bed*

This

Ahhhh

@✦ ┆ c. seungcheol. ᶜˡᵒᵘᵈᵉᵈ ˡᵉᵒᵖᵃʳᵈ You are amazing best friend yourself~
*smiles and hugs your arm gently*
I'm always hungry, what do you have in mind?
*nods and pouts a bit*
I just... can't stop feeling like I'm not good enough, when you think like that for no reason... I actually think I'm not that special, especially not to make them stay.

@✧ ┆ j. jungkook. ⁿᵉᵗʰᵉʳˡᵃⁿᵈ ᵈʷᵃʳᶠ Thank you bun. You're an amazing best friend. What would I do without you hm?
*Ruffles your hair gently then sets my glass down*
Are you hungry? I can order us something if you'd like.
I know you do...and I hate that you have to keep dealing with such luck.

@✦ ┆ c. seungcheol. ᶜˡᵒᵘᵈᵉᵈ ˡᵉᵒᵖᵃʳᵈ I really want to do it as you should never forget how sweet and caring you are and how lucky your lover to have you.
*leans to your soft touch and smiles*
I... try to but... yeah so tired of chasing... for real.
*nods and sighs, resting my head on your shoulder*
I know it just... I hate that feeling...

@✧ ┆ j. jungkook. ⁿᵉᵗʰᵉʳˡᵃⁿᵈ ᵈʷᵃʳᶠ I couldn't ask you to do that. You have better things to do.
But you're sweet, thank you
*Rubs your bunny ears*
I suppose. But perhaps give them time to see your texts?
I guess we're both tired of chasing hmm?
*Finishes the wine in my glass*
It'll be okay bun. You've gotten through tougher times.

@✦ ┆ c. seungcheol. ᶜˡᵒᵘᵈᵉᵈ ˡᵉᵒᵖᵃʳᵈ So don't! You are soooo amazing. If you need it I will come everyday to remind you that
*leans to your touch his bunny ears moving*
If they didn't see my texts... and wasn't there,doesn't it means they don't have time?
I'm just... so tired... and I can't chase after anyone, if someone doesn't reply to me.I would just wait and go... I can't keep waiting, not anymore.

@✧ ┆ j. jungkook. ⁿᵉᵗʰᵉʳˡᵃⁿᵈ ᵈʷᵃʳᶠ I seem to be forgetting that's for sure.
*Pats your head gently*
Maybe it's not that they don't have the time but they just haven't gotten to it?
I'm sorry you've been feeling lonely though.
I'm here, bun.

@✦ ┆ c. seungcheol. ᶜˡᵒᵘᵈᵉᵈ ˡᵉᵒᵖᵃʳᵈ *gives you a warm hug*
It would be alright, just don't ever forget how amazing you are
*leans my head against your shoulder*
Well... If I speak with my friends it takes them... some days to reply so.... it feels like they don't have time for me...
I just feel very lonely... I don't like that feeling at all

@✧ ┆ j. jungkook. ⁿᵉᵗʰᵉʳˡᵃⁿᵈ ᵈʷᵃʳᶠ I will choose the right time.
*Sighs softly*
Are you assuming your friends have no time for you because they have lovers?
Or do they really not have time for you?
*Looks at you curiously*

@✦ ┆ c. seungcheol. ᶜˡᵒᵘᵈᵉᵈ ˡᵉᵒᵖᵃʳᵈ I see... I hope you two can fix it up, I really think you deserve to be happy and you are enough, more than enough.
Choose the right timing then...
*looks at you quietly*
I don't look for anything... i just want to have fun... and lately I just don't have fun...
I just feel very lonely... that's all, my friends also have no time to spend with me...
*cries quietly and pours myself another glass*

@✧ ┆ j. jungkook. ⁿᵉᵗʰᵉʳˡᵃⁿᵈ ᵈʷᵃʳᶠ I'll speak to him, of course. But it might not be right away. His cycle is starting. I don't want to cause him any distress with my own emotional issues during that time. And then it's his birthday. So maybe after that.
*Gently clinks my glass with yours then drinks from it*
I think you're still searching for love when you need to let it come for you.
You're so focused on other couples and what you're missing out on, that you're forgetting to enjoy your friends.

@✦ ┆ c. seungcheol. ᶜˡᵒᵘᵈᵉᵈ ˡᵉᵒᵖᵃʳᵈ You don't have to tell me that... I did all the chasing and look at me now... You are right, you deserve to feel loved as well... this is why you need to speak with him seriously about how you feel. You are perfect, Cheol. for real. So caring and sweet to just everyone... I don't know why his head filled with doubts but you are NOT the reason and it's not your fault in any way.
You are allowed to be weak as well... show him your weakness too... ask him how he feels
*rests my head against your shoulder before clicking our glasses together*
I really start to think I wouldn't. honestly
*laughs bitterly and drinks all the liquid from my glass*

@✧ ┆ j. jungkook. ⁿᵉᵗʰᵉʳˡᵃⁿᵈ ᵈʷᵃʳᶠ I just...I don't understand why do I have to always chase him down? It makes me feel like he doesn't truly want to be with me...I thought partnerships were equal. Why does he not do the same? I just...want to be shown I'm loved too.
I know his pretty head is filled with doubts and I do my best to try and quiet those thoughts for him. But I feel like...I'm just not enough. I can't even convince him to go to a doctor when he isn't feeling well, not even if I ask him to do it for me.
*Sighs out, just staring at the wall*
Does he love me? Would he hold me and quiet my doubts? I try to be strong for both of us but sometimes I'm weak too.
*Closes my eyes then pulls back and nods*
Here, let me get you glass.
*Stands to pour you a glass of wine, bringing it back and handing it to you. Sits again*
You will find your someone special one day

@✦ ┆ c. seungcheol. ᶜˡᵒᵘᵈᵉᵈ ˡᵉᵒᵖᵃʳᵈ Did you try to have an heart to heart talk with him? You love each other,maybe you just need to say everything out loud and not keep it in...
*wipes away your tears gently, tearing up myself*
You are more than good enough, you are an amazing guy!
don't let him be alone, try to get him back to you
*hugs you closer to me and rub your back*
I know but I... everyone has their someone's special.... I just get my heart broken too many times...
this is so hard... and of course you count
*gives you a light squeeze*
so are we drinking wine?