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@ᵇ kim yugyeom. I’ll do more than show, baby, you’ll feel it. Through out every part of your body, I’m gonna make you feel just me.
keeps my gaze lowered down at you as I wanted to see everything you’d do, your warm hand wrapping around my semi- sends a tingling feeling all throughout my body. pressing my lips together in a thin line as your tongue makes contact to the tip of my , it throbs in response and hardens a bit more in your grip.
You look good like this yknow? Even more so when your lips wrap around my and of course many other various things

@ᵃ moon sangmin. Even though you weren’t on your rut, the mention of it makes my body twitch in excitement. The thought riling me up more and my jeans becoming noticeably tighter with each passing second.
Please, show me what you got~
Purrs out as I lift a hand and wrap it around the base of your shaft. Your fingers in my locks while looking down at me encourages a shiver to spike through my body. My tongue rolls out of my mouth and I glide the wet muscle along the head of your .
Don’t have to tell me twice, Sangda~
I purr out once more, occasionally glancing up at you to see your reactions.

@ᵇ kim yugyeom. as your hand begins to wrap around my length and it to life, it twitches in response to the words you begin to spill of your needs and wants, i'm not use to you speaking so ally like that; your heat really does bring out another side of you but it wasn't something i disliked. the hands at your hips gently squeezes and rubs my thumbs against the area, humming lowly from the feeling of your warm hand pumping my .
That's definitely something we can do.. it's too bad my rut is over then I could really you mercilessly but that doesn't mean I won't do my best to right now.
the moment you take your shirt off, your exposed top half makes me hum internally in approval, dropping my hands from your hips are you begin to lower yourself onto your knees, staring down at you with lust-filled eyes, reaching out a hand to gently card my fingers into your hair.
Go ahead baby, it's all yours. as much as you want.

@ᵃ moon sangmin. Mhm, everything-
I respond without wasting a moment, desperate for your clothes to come off and your body to entangle with my own. I’m completely whipped and controlled by my heat now. The more I see of you the more I want you. The tender kiss making me smile a bit.
my lips as you tell me to confess more of my wants all while you finish undressing yourself. My mind is becoming not my own as I reach a hand over to coil my digits around your shaft, slowly stroking it.
I wanna on your and then I want you to mercilessly me until I can’t see straight.
Brings my hands back to remove own shirt, pulling it up and off of my body. I toss it away, not caring about where it lands. Your hands present on my hips makes my knees feel weak. My cheeks have tinted red and I’m slowly getting to my knees.
Shall I?

@ᵇ kim yugyeom. I just can’t help it but give you everything you want. I love spoiling you.
Oh you and I will be spending tons of time together, especially these next few days that is.
I don’t take my eyes off of you as you begin to roam your hands against my chest and lower stomach once more, quite enjoying how your touch feels against my skin. a small grin tugs at the corner of my mouth, you’re always so cute when you get caught off guard with my physical touches.
Everything?
chuckles softly, the increase in potency of your scent was a clear sign the affects your heat was having on you, looking into your expecting eyes before leaning down to press a soft kiss to your lips.
My needy boy. Go on, tell me more of what you want.
my arms let go, not stepping away to keep the close proximity as I start to push down my sweats and boxers, kicking them off my feet, hands returning to your hips.

@ᵃ moon sangmin. You’re too good to me, Sangda.
Mentions, really believing you were the best of the best. No one could ask for a better partner.
Me too, I love seeing you and spending time with you… getting to feel your warmth.
My teeth catch my lower lip as you take your shirt and peel it off your body. The palms of my hands immediately flattening against your skin and roaming the expansion of your abdomen and chest. Eyes stuck on the curves of your muscles and delicate appear of your collarbones. Being tugged closer causes me to inhale sharply, loving the proximity. My scent begins to linger more as I’m becoming increasingly by even just the smallest actions.
Everything… I want everything off.
My dark, lust filled spheres lift up to meet your gaze. It’s clear that my heat has taken effect and I’m gonna be all over you for the next couple days.

@ᵇ kim yugyeom. Well, you’re home now. Relax and let me pamper you in every way you want.
hums contently to have you with me; always enjoying your presence, my arms tighten slightly around your body as your scent begins to be the only thing I can smell.
I agree, I always look forward to seeing you and spending time with you.
loosens my arms as you pull away, my arms loosely wrapped at your waist, emitting an amused chuckle as your hands instantly begin to explore under my shirt, nodding my head at your request. my arms let go, hands gripping at the hem of my shirt to pull it off, hands then holding against your waist and tugs you a bit closer to me.
Anything else you want me to take off?

@ᵃ moon sangmin. It was such a long day, Sangda
Meets you half way, my arms immediately wrapping around your neck. With our chests flush I can feel myself becoming needier by the second.
The kiss to my forehead makes me smile and I return the small kiss to your lips
Me too, seeing you is my favorite part of the day.
Parts from the hug and slips my hands beneath your shirt, desperate fingers roaming your abdomen.
Can you~ take this off?
-refers to your shirt-

@ᵇ kim yugyeom. Must have been a long day for you.
steps closer to you and your scent is quick to reach me, it surrounds you in such a sweet smell that draws me closer to you.
Always.
my arms reach out to wrap at your waist and gently pulls you closer to be flush against my chest, pressing a soft kiss to your forehead.
I’m glad you’re back

@ᵃ moon sangmin. A smile immediately forms when you come out of the bedroom. I begin to pull off my coat and jacket, lying them in the kitchen counter.
Thanks, handsome.
It’s at this point that my scent is lingering in the radius around my being. A faint floral scent sweetening the air.
Miss me?
I ask despite knowing the answer.

@ᵇ kim yugyeom. when you walk in it’s noticeable with the way you call out to me and the sounds of the door opening and closing, catching my attention I get up from the bed and head out towards the living room, smiling tenderly as I set my eyes on you.
Hey babe, welcome home

@ᵃ moon sangmin. Babe! I’m home!
-Calls out while stepping through the door, closing it quickly so the automatic lock would engage-
Babe?
-chimes out once more, kicking off my shoes and dropping my stuff near the door-

@ᵃ moon sangmin. When you point out I’m getting flustered it only flusters me more. The possessive tightening of your arms around me despite no one else being present makes me smile. I enjoyed that behavior.
Your whispering next to my ear makes them feel hot. My fingers curl into the fabric of your shirt and I nod slowly.
P-please..I think it’s hitting a bit earlier than I thought it would..
I shift from foot to foot, antsy to get my clothes off.

@ᵇ kim yugyeom. lowers my hand and looks to you curiously upon hearing you say it wasn’t an illness, until I begin to see your shy demeanor which makes my brows quirk up for a second.
You’re getting flustered..
realization hits when you mention your cycle and my arms tighten more around you possessively, as if to not let anyone near you. my lips pulling into a little grin and I lean in to whisper against your ear.
Do you want help, love?

@ᵃ moon sangmin. I blink a bit confused when you begin to feel my cheek and express that my body temp is a bit higher than normal. My cheeks darken as I meet your eyes, the concerned expression melting me.
I-it’s not because I’m getting sick, Sangda—
I bite my lower lip, not sure why I felt shy to express myself.
I think it has to does with my cycle…
I whisper the last bit even though we are in our home where there are no prying ears.

@ᵇ kim yugyeom. oh the sweet sounds you make when you want certain affection makes me grin in a giddy way, emitting a soft chuckle before looking into your gaze with a tender smile.
Good thing I don’t plan on going anywhere then.
with your words it’s when I take notice that your hands are also rather warm than your normal body temperature, lifting my hand to cup at your cheek and gently caressing against it, a tinge of concern furrowing at my brows.
You do feel rather warm, are you getting a fever?

@ᵃ moon sangmin. Steps down onto my feet as you set me down, my arms slightly sliding off your shoulders. I still stuck close to you, refusing to fully part.
A soft whine escapes me when you part our lips, not ready to give yours up. Though I can’t help but grin at the myriad of kisses.
I’m better too, being here with you.
Slides my arms the rest of the way off your shoulders and my hands sneak beneath the back of your shirt. My hands roaming your warm skin and my teeth catching my lower lip.
I’m also feeling… a bit hot

@ᵇ kim yugyeom. there’s contentment in the way I breathe as you’re in my arms again, tightening slightly as I set you down and hum happily from the kisses, leaning down a bit to press back each on you’ve given me.
Better, now that you’re here.
mutters between the kisses, my lips soon straying as I press an array of affection all over your face.
How are you, my love?

@ᵃ moon sangmin. A bright smile forms on my features seeing you zoom toward me. My arms outstretching to wrap around your neck when you pick me up and spin us around.
Sangda, my handsome panda.
Nuzzles my nose with yours before stealing several kisses from your lips.
How..have you.. been??
I ask in between kisses, not wanting to part my lips from yours for even a moment.

@ᵇ kim yugyeom. my ears easily pick up the sound of your voice and i'm zooming out, arms open to take you into a tight embrace before picking you feet off the ground to give you a spin.
Yugyeom, my precious boy

@ᵃ moon sangmin. Enters our shared home on a mission to find you.
Sangda?
I call out, glancing from room to room.

@ᵃ moon sangmin. The small squeeze to my being helps calm me down further. My breathing slowly returning to its normal rhythm along with the beat of my heart.
I’m just happy that the both of us are here and talking about it now rather than letting negative feelings and insecurity fester. You don’t need to apologize, I understand that communication is incredibly important in relationships and yet, I still failed at communicating with you properly.
I can promise you that I’ll do my best to share my weak moments, my exhausted ones, my frustrated ones… anything that I feel. I want you to do the same. I want us to be together for an incredibly long time, ‘til the universe collapses in on itself, and I just know the both of us have that capability if we put the work in.
There’s a true sense of tranquility that washes over me when you hug me close, also seemingly unwilling to part from me. The affectionate nuzzling and kissing make me faintly smile.
You’re the only one for me, Sangda. I love you so much. I hope that we can create tons of memories with one another. Let’s do a lot of stuff together.
whispers this as the tears have made me exhausted, my hands don’t lose their grip on you though, they are still tightly clinging to fistfuls of your shirt.

@ᵇ kim yugyeom. hearing you cry like this was a first for me, each sob just making me ache; I’m sure you must have been going through it too and this may have made it only increase. with every word I can feel the dark clouded thoughts begin to gradually fade away from me, arms giving your body a small squeeze.
I should have came to you sooner about this. I really thought I could do it on my own. Seems I forgot the most important thing, that I am no longer on my own anymore, cause now I have you. I’m sorry, Yugyeom. For having made you feel this way.. for being the reason you’re shedding tears. Can you promise me one thing?.. I know we share all our laughs and good times together, can you promise me we’d also spend the sad times together? I never want you to be crying alone or lost in dark thoughts alone.
with how your body leans against me I pull you closer to me, not wanting us to part even for a single second. begins to gently nuzzle my cheek against your head before pressing gentle kisses against it.
I love you too, so much, yugyeom, my sweet boy. I can’t imagine my life without you and you’re the only one I want by my side. The only one who has my heart.
Yes, I want to do that still. Along with so many other things.

@ᵃ moon sangmin. I do my best to control my uneven breathing and sniffles, listening to you attentively.
Sangda, please don’t handle things all on your own too often. I’m here to help reassure you when you have doubts or insecurities. I want to be able to help put your mind at ease whenever I’m able to.
The tightening of your arms around my waist has brought comfort to my distressed being.
There is absolutely no way you are the issue. You’re so attentive to me and caring. You’re always doing things for me and wanting to do what I do. It’s why I want to do more of the things you like, I wanna be able to spoil you too. I think… I just noticed that you’re busier now and I’m beginning to understand what you had to go through when I was so busy. I hate being away from you and not having you here kills me. I’m willing to wait because I know it’s so worth it so see you. To feel your arms wrap around me and receive all your kisses. So, I’m sorry for not being patient, for letting my emotions get the better of me. Especially when you’ve been so patient for me.
I am able to finally inhale a deep breath when you confirm that you’re not looking to break up. My body slumping against yours and my hands falling from your face to hug around your neck.
I love you so much, Sangda. You’re the only one for me, I don’t want anyone else.
Let’s plan to see the lights together soon, okay?

@ᵇ kim yugyeom. I’m sorry, I thought I could handle this on my own and that I’d be better by today, but I just couldn’t shake the feeling off. Which is why you saw me out here.
the stream of your tears causes my brows on my expressionless face to furrow out of concern and worry, slightly tightening my arms around your waist.
I think yesterday’s talk just scared me… and I started to wonder perhaps I was the issue, but it was weird cause I know my feelings for you are strong and I know you feel the same. We wouldn’t be here if we didn’t, right? That’s when I sorta… gave myself for wondering all these things. It’s not fair to you…
slowly lifts my head as you cup my face, making full eye contact with you and finally witnessing your crying expression, the pang returning to my chest as you plead out, a deep sigh breathes out from me.
Never, has that thought ever crossed my mind, yugyeom. You’re my forever and despite how I may feel in the moment, I will always love you in the end, always.

@ᵃ moon sangmin. Helplessly clings to you, not willing to let go. Tears already spilling from my eyes and running down my cheeks.
I’m here to reassure you, Sangda. Please, any insecurities you have I want to know about. Communication is important and if you’ve been feeling under appreciated or that you’ve been doing something wrong I want to fix it. I don’t want to lose you. You’re so incredibly important to me and if I lose you I think I might die.
Reluctantly takes the pouch and tucks it back into my pocket.
Please, give me some reassurance.. that you don’t want to leave me. I love you, I love you so much that it hurts.
Pulls back to cup your face, sniffling and caressing your cheeks with my thumbs.
Please…

@ᵇ kim yugyeom. loosely coils my arms at your waist when I felt your arms at my shoulders, noticing how your eyes begin to gloss over and shines against the light, there’s a sting at my chest; cause despite my troubles, seeing you in such a state pained me.
I’m sorry.. I know that you say so and I do believe you. I just, I guess I’ve just been feeling insecure about it all. I tend to get blinded when in love, by my own feelings, sometimes so blinded to the point where I never see when I’m hurting or neglecting my partner cause I don’t see it that way. Cause I know deep inside how much I love them and sometimes I think that’s enough for the both of us, but I know that’s always not the case. So while I really want to open this and see what it is…
eyes drop down at the pouch I hold, before slowly handing it back to your with an expressionless face, keeping my gaze away from yours.
I don’t deserve it. Not yet..

@ᵃ moon sangmin. My heart pounds in my throat when you begin to express how you don’t feel like you’re enough for me. Anxiety floods my system as I throw my arms over your shoulders, tears brimming at my waterline.
Don’t say that, Sangda. I love you with all my heart and I’m so sorry that I haven’t done enough to express that properly. You mean the world to me, please, don’t feel that way. You deserve the entire world. There isn’t a moment where I’m not thinking of you. Please open it..

@ᵇ kim yugyeom. That’s sweet of you.
leans my cheek against your head for a moment as I listen to you speak silently only to lift my head away as you pull your head back away from my neck to begin to dig for something in your pocket, my eyes observing the small black pouch with a golden embroidery on the front, deciding to sit up with you while you’re on my lap, I take the pouch and gently brush my thumb over the crest.
… I don’t feel like I deserve this though… Lately I feel like I’m not enough for you anymore, like the love I have isn’t enough to fulfill you. So do I really deserve to get this gift from you?

@ᵃ moon sangmin. I actually just finished schedules and saw you curled up on the couch. I figured I would join you.
Begins to rub circles into your lower back, hoping to offer you some semblance of calm. When I’m gifted another kiss from your addictive lips, I place another on your neck.
I just want to say that… I love you, Sangmin. The way you think, the way you smile and talk. How you hold me close whenever we meet one another. The crazy amount of kisses you give me. Your caring personality and your want for me to be happy always.
I reel my head back and pull my hand from your shirt to reach into the pocket of my sweatpants. There’s a small black pouch with a golden cord woven into the fabric that I fish out and show you.
I’ve been meaning to give you this…
Inside this pouch is a thin, silver-chained necklace. Attached to that necklace is a tiny bamboo pendent with two tiny leaves sticking off the side. I hold it toward you, wanting to watch as you open it.