❀ sky garden | eunoia

@α jeon jiho『ʟᴇᴏ』 @♀ seo jiyoung『ᴊᴀᴅᴇ』 Horror.

That was what he felt when he heard the sniffle followed by the loud cluttering sound on the floor, alerting him that there was someone else aside from him and his brother. Thinking that it might even be the CEO, Jun looked behind him only to see the worst choice among all the people in the company to be there.

Seo Jiyoung. She was there. And from the look of it, she heard everything.

Blood drained from his face at the realization. His whole body shook as Jun tried to keep his emotion in lock, not that it mattered anyway now that she finally heard about his stupid feelings for her. Glancing at Jiho, however, all he could think of was how hurt it felt for her after hearing (albeit unintentionally) Jiho's rejection.

Suddenly it felt too much for him. His brother's apology, then her sudden appearance. Minjun quickly stood up, after distancing himself from Jiho of course, so their head wouldn't collide with one another. "How much did you hear..." He couldn't help but ask the lady though his voice was barely above the whisper.

Too much. It's all too much for him.

Without saying anything, Minjun his heels and stormed out of the rooftop, walking past Jiyoung, ignoring her; at least for now. He still didn't know how to face her after his "accidental" confession to her. The tip of his ears were red but he didn't give a damn about it for now. All he knew was that he needed some space.

So he ran away. Ignoring the weird look he got from the staff as he walked briskly towards the emergency exit stairs and run down towards the practice room on the third floor.

At least in that tiny cubicle, he could try to control himself again. Or so he hoped.

@α jeon jiho『ʟᴇᴏ』 @❀ jeon minjun『ᴀᴄᴇ』ˢᵒˡᵒⁱˢᵗ Without realizing, tears were rolling down Jiyoung's cheeks. The brisk rooftop air was quickly drying them away as she watched the two brothers before her.

'I can never see her as something else.'

Weird, it didn't sting anymore. Guess it's like getting a tattoo - when you sting the skin too many times, it becomes numb. Or is this what they call "acceptance"?
Maybe getting over someone really was that painful in the beginning, but then it suddenly just... didn't ache anymore. How weird, indeed. Now it was only the sadness. The wrench thrown in her guts, realizing her actions and their consequences.
The guilt.

Looking down, the blonde finally felt a big tear roll down her face and sniffled...

Oh, no.

The sound broke the silence that had laid over the rooftop, alerting everyone and their mom about her existence. Her pathetic, snotty existence, might I add.
Quickly she shot a hand to her face, to rub at her nose, but with that action - she swatted some object, that clattered traitorously to the ground.
Great.
Astounding.
ing ace.
No pun intended.

With tiny steps, she emerged from the shade of the chimney, looking between the two. "Minjun-ah... I..."

@❀ jeon minjun『ᴀᴄᴇ』ˢᵒˡᵒⁱˢᵗ jiho's heart sank at the sight of his younger brother's outburst and cries. how — how come something like this happen to them? he sighed and bites his lips. he's also feeling numb within his body and can only stares off before he sighed. he crouch down next to minjun, and pats his head before he took him into his arms. he could feels tears swelling down on his cheeks as well. "you idiot. I'm sorry. it's my fault .."

jiho have to admitted it's part of his mistakes as well, but kissing mika on that time was never a mistake. things just happened at the wrong time — jiho knows better not to pour the oil inside the fire as he remained calm and patting minjun's back before he pulls away and sighed again. "i do get it now, when we started to love someone we become hopeless. I'm sorry, I didn't want to tell her that I know because i thought it would be better that way, and for her to move on from me if I didn't say anything. I only sees her as sister, minjun ah. I can never see her as something else. I know, I know I should tell her, but I'm holding myself because I don't want things getting awkward between us, you know. she's like a good little sister to me, and so were you, my little brother. you see me acted tough all the times, but did you see with the toughness that I build, I'm also a weak man, minjun ah. I know it hurts. I know the pain, and I want nothing but your happiness. come on, you know what, I think it's better to let this all out at once, I appreciate your outbursts today. for jade, you'll be fine. if you really want me to tell her, that I won't look at her way, I will. I will do anything for you, minjun ah. either it's too late or not, as long as she can see you as jeon minjun now. for you, I would. you and minji's both happiness are my priorities." jiho remained calm when he said that, as the anger already subsided down. "I'm sorry. hyung is sorry with what happened."

“is it jade?!”

Air stood still in her lungs.

“I can only see her as a sister.”

Come on, Jiyoung. As if you didn’t know. But why did it sting like that, to hear it outright?

“ I'm fully aware about her feelings for me, so what? you want me to pretend that I like her?”

Here, should i sit like this, so you can pour more salt in that wound, hm? Sure, sure, go on, proclaim your love, don’t let me stop you with my existence.
The blonde had to place a hand against the chimney to balance herself. The surface was covered in soot and rust, but what is some more dirt, when… Wait, what… surely he didn’t mean…

"I love Jiyoung“
Minjun… sweet, sweet Minjun… Oh, how she had ed up. Grandiose. Outstanding. He had always been there, just within arm’s reach. Like that night - close enough for her to take it out on him, without realizing the consequences… Jiyoung was no better than Jiho in this sense, how did Minjun not hate her? Her heart felt like it was beating in , suffocating her. Yeah, Jiho, why didn’t you tell me? Why didn’t you rip off that band aid? How unfair and selfish you are and how easy it is to blame you and forget about my fault…

Sweet, sweet Minjun with your tear stained face, how beautiful you are with your soul on your sleeve. You don’t deserve to cry over such a monster, who did this to you. You only deserve sweet kisses to kiss your tears away

“I love her so much that it hurts, hyung.”

Everything made sense now, Jiyoung thought.

And finally Jiyoung thought right.

@α jeon jiho『ʟᴇᴏ』 "I DID EVERYTHING I COULD AND TRY TO ALWAYS BE THERE FOR HER BUT ALL I EVER BE WAS JUST JIHO'S LITTLE BROTHER!" His chest heaved with anger he failed to contain, his whole body was shaking. Frustration, desperation, sadness, and his hatred towards himself mixed all together and for the first time in his life, Jeon Minjun was at a loss of what to do. "I love Jiyoung but she never looks my way no matter what I do..."

He slumped down on the floor, gritting his teeth in agony. It would be nice if he could just forget about his feelings for her, but just like how Jiho wouldn't give up about Mika, he didn't want to give up on Jiyoung as well. The look on her face that night haunted him like a ghost. Even after he drowned himself in alcohol once he returned to his room, it just wouldn't leave him alone every time he closed his eyes.

Minjun hated this. More importantly, he hated himself. It was always like this. Back when he was still with Jiyeon, the insecurity for being not as wealthy as her made him put some distance, ultimately breaking his relationship with her by saying that he wanted to focus on debuting. And now, this situation with his brother. It was unfair for him to put all the blame on Jiho when he did nothing wrong like he said. Each and every word that coming out from the older Jeon's mouth was like a sword pierced through his heart.

"...I am happy for you, hyung... I truly am." He admitted amidst the tears that were running down on his face. "I didn't ask you to pretend to like her... It just would hurt the three of you more. You, her and Mika nee-san. If you know she likes you then why didn't you just tell her? Instead of letting her hoping that someday you would look her way?" Jun looked at his brother through tears filled eyes. A very rare occasion of him crying like this especially in front of his brother but right now, he didn't give a damn. "Don't say I don't pursue her like a man, hyung... You didn't know what I've done, will do, and would do for her... Your mom always told us to treat someone we love like a queen when we found one. I did. Or at least I think I did... but for her... for Seo Jiyoung... I would never be more than Jeon Jiho's little brother.” Minjun gripped the front of his shirt, as if by doing that he could make the pain less painful.

“Do you know how I felt when I saw her heart breaking into pieces when we saw you and Mika nee-san made out in the empty hallway? Even though she kissed me after that, I knew it was just her way to cope with things and the ed up thing was I didn’t mind it. I kissed her back because I knew that might be the only time she would ever kiss me… Do you know how much I hate myself because of that, hyung?” A humorless chuckle escaped Jun’s lips, his eyes that usually shine with excitement, now reduced to nothing but an empty stare. “Tell me what should I do to make her finally look my way? To see me as Jeon Minjun and not Jeon Jiho’s little brother?” With his shoulders shaking, he finally cried without any more restraint, letting out all of the pain he felt inside. Work did manage to occupy his mind for a while but it could never stop his heart from feeling the pain. “I love her so much that it hurts, hyung.”

@❀ jeon minjun『ᴀᴄᴇ』ˢᵒˡᵒⁱˢᵗ jiho's eyes widened at minjun's sudden outbursts, he's trying to grab his wrist when he grabbed his collar, seemingly confused with what he was saying. "what the are you doing right now, jeon minjun. let me go." as he listens to minjun's ramblings, jiho frowned. what the hell — what is this all about anyways?? was he wrong in getting back together with mika?

"she? who is she that you're talking about —" just when he's about to finish his words, a punch were thrown to him, bruising his lips. he looks at minjun in anger, what was this misunderstanding? "who the are you talking about ? is it jade ?! for your information, I can only see her as a sister. do you think I'm a dense and dummy like you ? I know you like her. I already know even before you realise itself that YOU LIKE HER. if the reason you're like this, just because what happened that night, you're so ed up, jeon minjun. I'm fully aware about her feelings for me, so what? you want me to pretend that I like her ? what about you ? what about love of my life? you fking know too well that my heart is only for mika, and you know it too. YOU FKING KNOW HOW MISERABLE I AM WITHOUT HER! MY MIKA." tears brimming down on his cheeks as he yelled those words out. "it took us long enough to reach that ing day to be with each other again, shouldn't you be happy for me at least? you're so helpless, minjun and effortless too, because you did nothing to pursue your love who's right in front of you. your insecurities towards me just going to hurt you even more, so stop it. I begged you to stop it. IF YOU WANT HER SO BAD, PURSUE HER LIKE A MAN AND DON'T ING BLAME ME, JEON MINJUN — but I guess you can blame your dad for raising us that way."

“… you broke several hearts at the same time, hyung?!"

Jiyoung was close enough to catch snippets of the conversation now, but she quickly froze in her step, still in the shadow of the chimney columns. Dilemma was upon her. The blonde felt like an intruder, but after all she came up here to talk to Minjun, so she decided to stay, maybe there would be an opportunity for her to step in soon.
But the more she listened, the more confused she got. Minjun sounded so… desperate, so… dejected. She barely contained her gasp when the taller brother gripped the older by the lapels, this was going out of control, should she intervene?

“ ... if she likes someone else, I wouldn't be this mad...”

‘She’…? Were they fighting over a woman? And Minjun was mad because… Ah! Because Jiho and Mika got together! Minjun was in love with Mika too? Well, no surprise there, everyone loves Mika. But damn, three at the same time, way to go, unnie… ‘Poor Minjunnie, i know how it feels, babe…’ Jiyoung thought to herself, snorting quietly at the irony that both of them had has their hearts broken that night it seems, by the same couple. Ah, faith is cruel… Everything made sense now, Jiyoung thought.

Jiyoung thought wrong.

Before she knew it, a fist was flying to Jiho’s face and she had to slap both hands over to keep the yelp down. He was that mad over Mika?? Whoa, that’s a bit excessive… but, what did he mean “have her heart broken”? Mika’s heart wasn’t broken, matter of fact she is happier than ever. “Look her way”? What? What??

@α jeon jiho『ʟᴇᴏ』 @♀ seo jiyoung『ᴊᴀᴅᴇ』 Minjun's eyes never leaving his brother's face. Taking note on how that usually cold demeanor cracked just at the mere thought of his loved one...without knowing that he just broke someone's heart. His fists tighten as his mind took him back to what happened at his birthday party. The one that supposed to be the best day of his life, well at first it was, until one action tore everything apart.

It's been a couple of months since then but for Jeon Minjun, it happened as if it was yesterday. With the way turned out that night, Minjun should be happy that he got a kiss from her. Yes. Seo Jiyoung. The recent case that made Minjun hated his brother. Although he knew that his brother wouldn't know about the messy love interest line that happened between the three of them, Minjun needed someone to be blamed aside from himself.

"So that's why you were eating each other's face at my birthday party huh?" His voice sounded way too bitter even to his own ears, body trembling holding back his anger but it wasn't enough as he surged forward, grabbing his brother's shirt on the collar area. "Couldn't you be more doscreet about that?! Did you know with doing that, you broke several hearts at the same time, hyung?!" Gone was the always calm and collected Jeon Minjun, replaced by someone who couldn't contain his emotions anymore. "...Why is it always you... What's in you that I don't have huh?!" To be honest, being the middle child, Minjun always get overshadowed by jiho's success but he didn't mind it at all before but when he realized the woman he's in love with is actually liking his brother instead, the inferiority complex surged back up full force. And without him knowing, tears started to flow down. "Why it has to be you... if she likes someone else, I wouldn't be this mad... BUT WHY IT HAS TO BE YOU, DAMN IT!" Without him realizing it, his fist flying up to punch Jiho's cheek. He knew he was being an right now but Minjun can't help it. "Why she had to fall for you? Why did she follow you out that night... if she didn't... if she didn't... she wouldn't have her heart broken like that. Did you ever even look her way hyung?!"

@❀ jeon minjun『ᴀᴄᴇ』ˢᵒˡᵒⁱˢᵗ jiho spun around quickly when he heard his little brother's voice beside him, a familiar and comforting sound in the otherwise quiet room. a shy smile graced his lips as the question lingered in the air. hearing mika's name was enough to melt the icy barrier around his heart, and he nodded at minjun's question, feeling a rush of warmth. "well, we are getting back together," he said, his voice steady but betraying a hint of excitement.

despite his effort to stay composed, his face clearly showed the joy bubbling inside him. "mika and i have decided to take this risk and be with each other again. you know how much i love her, jun. i can't even begin to describe how happy i am right now. it's like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders."

@α jeon jiho『ʟᴇᴏ』 @♀ seo jiyoung『ᴊᴀᴅᴇ』 //with a frustrated sigh, he rushes after his brother to the rooftop, after prior agreeing to meet him by the text earlier today. He knows that Jiho stopping by the recording room was clearly with no malice intention but seeing him staring at Mika with such a fond look when Jade in the same room was a bit... insensitive of him. But deep inside, he also knew that his brother have zero knowledge about the blonde haired woman's crush on him, just like how she doesn't aware of jun's feeling for her.//

//finally reaching the rooftop, he scans the area to search for his brother's figure and found him on the corner of the rooftop. Taking a little deep breath, he makes his way toward Jiho with hands tucked inside his jeans pocket/
So... you said you want to tell me something. Is it about you and Mika-san?

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@α jeon jiho『ʟᴇᴏ』 Mika’s shoulders relaxed once he wrapped his arms around her. She needed it, evidently. Apart from dealing with this there was so much on her plate already just to forget or maybe even feel something to get the day over with. His warmth was she something she truly missed and hoped that wouldn’t get away so quickly. She gently shook her head whilst he spoke, quietly wrapping her arms around his waist accepting that it wouldn’t it be so bad to reciprocate it—he most likely needed it too. “I know, i know.. I’m sorry. Really I am. I thought it was the right thing to do. I knew how important it was for you, your career.” She said, not realizing that tears were already falling down her cheeks until he pulled away to look at her. He hadn’t looked at her like in a while, it was disarming but definitely not uncomfortable. Even through the tears, she was getting lost in his gaze.

Of course she did. The regret of her leaving him ate her up for the past few months but asking to take it back would just be too complicated. She wanted nothing more than to take him back, say it was all a mistake or pretend it was all a dream and wake up with him still next to her. His determination to start over was infectious and even the way he’d say her name was hypnotic. She didn’t think he’d want her back after how he’d been towards her, even knowing it was a facade. “You really wanna do this again? With me?” She asked softly, the mention of her nickname made her weak in the knees. Why did he have to be so irresistible? “Ji..” she said before getting cut off with his lips once more but this was sincere, longing even. She then pressed her lips in return, as if to say yes, moving gently against his tiers.

@❀ takahashi mika ᵐᵃⁿᵃᵍᵉʳ hearing mika's candid admission about her true feelings evoked a deep sigh from jiho, his heart heavy with a mixture of frustration and longing. "you're so idiot," he murmured softly, almost to himself, his words tinged with both exasperation and affection. as he felt her small figure nestled against him, his arms instinctively encircled her, drawing her close to his chest, seeking solace in her presence.

"why do you persist in fooling yourself like this? can't you see that i'm hurting too?" he whispered, his voice thick with emotion, tears threatening to blur his vision. in that moment, he couldn't help but marvel at the depth of his love for the woman in his arms, despite the pain she unknowingly caused him.

with a gentle touch, he tilted her tear-stained face up to meet his gaze, his fingers tenderly brushing away the evidence of her distress. "stop it," he implored, his voice pleading yet determined. "do you realize how much it pains me to push you away each time i see you? your sorrowful expression, every tear you shed—it hurt me. please, forgive me, mika. can you find it in your heart to trust me once more, to take a chance on us?"

releasing her from his embrace, jiho held her tear-streaked cheeks in his hands, his eyes searching hers for any sign of doubt or hesitation. "let's start over." he proposed, his voice a tender murmur against her lips. "i promise to do everything in my power to protect you, to be the man you deserve. i'll strive to excel in my career, to show you that i can balance my ambitions with my love for you. but you must promise me one thing—stop pushing me away. i ache for you, mi. i miss you with every fiber of my being."

drawing her closer once more, jiho leaned in until their foreheads touched, their breaths mingling in the space between them. and then, with a gentle brush of his lips against hers, he sealed his vow with a kiss.

@α jeon jiho『ʟᴇᴏ』 She sighed with resignation. It hurts knowing that he thinks she doesn't love him when that's all she's done this whole time. She's always loved him even from afar since that was the only thing she could do, even if he had so much hate for her. Breaking up with him, especially with how long they were together wasn't easy. It never meant Mika hated or didn't want to be with him. "How am I driving us further apart? I never hated being with you, Jiho. I just.. I was trying to do the right thing or at least what seemed to be the right thing. I didn't want to hold you back or be the reason why you couldn't reach your full potential. I.. there's nothing or no one to be jealous of."

The kiss on her forehead was a bit disorienting for her. How was he still so affectionate despite how he's been towards her the past few months? It felt wrong but it most certainly felt right at the same time. She looked away from him when she had a chance, gently shaking her head as he continued to speak. It wasn't true, none of it was true. She was willing to take the risk but not at his expense. Not when he was at the top of his career that, sooner or later, he'd be too far up to reach-- not just for her but everyone else. "You know.. for someone smart, you could be stupid sometimes but no, Jiho, I love you so much that I cry myself to sleep filled with regret. I know we could have worked it out but I was scared. Scared, that I wouldn't be able to keep up with you or that I was holding you back from being something great."

"I understand why you're mad and you have every right to be. I wouldn’t even forgive myself for what I did that night.” Another sigh left her lips as she looked up at him, not knowing if it’d be the last time she’d get to see him close again. Admiring every inch of his features, taking note of every minor imperfection that made him unique. Tears quietly ran down her face as all she could do was cry at that moment. She was just as frustrated as he was, she always wondered why she didn’t stay before. Perhaps it was fear? Doubt? Fear that she wouldn’t be good enough for him or doubt that she wouldn’t be able to compete. She was foolish to even think this way about him, he always chose her over anything else. Whatever it was, it bothered Mika enough. She gently leaned her head against his chest, closing her eyes for a moment just trying to relish these few moments she might not have again.

@❀ takahashi mika ᵐᵃⁿᵃᵍᵉʳ jiho found himself grappling with a whirlwind of emotions as mika's sudden outbursts caught him off guard. was he being too overwhelming? why did he feel her pain so acutely whenever she lashed out? with a frustrated sigh, he pushed his hair back, trying to gather his thoughts amidst the turmoil.

deep down, jiho understood mika's intentions. she only wanted what she believed was best for him and his career. yet, he couldn't shake off the feeling of resentment towards himself for still desiring her presence in his life despite the chaos she brought.

"i understand your concerns, but do you realize that by doing this, you're only driving us further apart?" jiho's voice trembled with suppressed emotion. "do you hate being with me that much? can't you see how much it hurts me every time i come across those messages in our chat?"

it took him a moment to gather the courage to voice his inner turmoil. "i'm consumed by jealousy. i'm acting this way because i'm jealous. i can't stand the thought of someone else caring for you more than i do."

pushing her gently against the wall, jiho closed the distance between them, his touch tender yet tinged with frustration. with trembling hands, he wiped away the tears that stained her rosy cheeks, pressing a gentle kiss on her forehead.

"you taught me what it means to experience a first love, but then you ended it without being willing to take a risk with me," jiho confessed, his voice filled with raw emotion. "that's why i'm so infuriated. it feels as though you don't love me enough to fight for us."

@α jeon jiho『ʟᴇᴏ』 “You know what? yes i did hear myself. i am alone. my family is all the back in Japan, my friends, my relatives. You of all people, should know that and yet what? Because you’re so mad at me, you forgot about that already? I don’t have anyone else to run to about my problems. Sure, I’ve got friends here and there but it’s not like we’ve gone out for drinks and . As for Jiyong, I didn’t even go out with him but here you are believing in the delusion that I did just because he’s flirting with me, is that so bad? i am trying to do right by everyone here. you’re not so clean yourself anyway so why am i the only bad guy here? because i thought about your future? i only wanted what was best for you and still you paint me like i’m the here when it’s been you the whole time, jiho!”

Her bottle finally burst. She was so done with his snarky remarks and whatever else he wanted to throw at her. He was being incredibly childish and she’d never expected this from him. Yes he was hurt but it wasn’t an excuse for him to be nasty towards her. She breathed deeply as that took out a lot out of her, catching her breath and wiping some tears she had no idea were falling already.

“How many more apologies do I have to give until you believe me? Until you give it this whole delusion up? Do you want me to go out with him out spite?? You know i could to it. So what will it be?”

@❀ takahashi mika ᵐᵃⁿᵃᵍᵉʳ "pft. did you even hear yourself, miss takahashi?" jiho's smirk widened, the edges of his lips curling with a mix of amusement and bitterness. "you can't even prove yourself. alone, huh? cut that off. it's already painful enough to see you going out with my own member, and you act like nothing is going on between you two. if he were here to witness your antics like this, he would be so disappointed, though. i bet you don't want to hurt him like you hurt me."

his words hung in the air, heavy with accusation and a tinge of sorrow. jiho's gaze softened momentarily as he observed the woman before him, his eyes betraying the turmoil within his heart. he knew he was lashing out, masking his own hurt with sharp words and veiled threats. yet, beneath the facade of indifference, a storm of conflicting emotions raged within him.

another sigh escaped jiho's lips, laden with the weight of unspoken regrets and unacknowledged feelings. he couldn't deny the pang of guilt that gnawed at him, the realization dawning that his actions were driven more by wounded pride than genuine animosity.

@α jeon jiho『ʟᴇᴏ』 Confused and angry as she was, damn his lips still felt good against hers. A hint of yearning was still present within the two of them but surely they would never say it out loud. However, this moment messed with her and how she viewed their situation; on the one hand, he was still hostile to her but he still remembered the small things that only they knew. Broken up or not, she was in a tough spot, and it would be a while before she could get out of it.

As soon as the kiss ended, her eyes were still closed, savoring whatever was left of that moment that was exchanged with hurtful words right after. Mika looked away for a moment and let him talk as it seemed like there was a lot he wanted to say, rolling her eyes when the mention of Jiyong's name turned up once again. He would never let go of that even if it never happened. "He stood me up," she said with a sigh while she stood up properly trying to compose what self-regard she had left. "It was the same night he got into a car crash and it's not date."

"So I don't know what date you keep talking about.. aren't you being a little harsh about that? Saying things like the six years we were together meant nothing to me? do you think I woke up one day and chose to break up with you? if it were up to me we'd still be together but I didn't want to put your career on the line, I was still thinking of you and your future. I've never thought about anything but you, please know that."

Mika knew he wasn't going to. He was still firm on the idea that she was a liar, "I don't have anyone to run to. It's always just been me, alone. I guess you could consider the lion plushie you gave me but that's it. You know I've always been alone. I can't stop you from blaming me or wanting to hurt me but I do hope you consider how I feel still. This isn't you, Jiho. You know this isn't you and I don't know why you're letting it consume you. It's confusing enough that you still care a little but here you are, angry. Sort it out, Jiho before you come at me."

@❀ takahashi mika ᵐᵃⁿᵃᵍᵉʳ jiho's eyes widened in disbelief, a surge of hurt and betrayal flooding his senses. the sting of her palm against his skin mirrored the ache in his heart as he struggled to comprehend her actions. in that moment, jiho felt a whirlwind of emotions swirling within him - confusion, anger, and a profound sense of loss. how could she strike him, the one person he thought understood him better than anyone else?

in a moment of desperation, jiho's emotions erupted like a storm, his anguish and resentment pouring out in a torrent of action. with a swift motion, he backed mika against the nearest wall, his grip unyielding yet trembling with the intensity of his feelings. their eyes locked in a silent battle of wills, each seeking answers that seemed to drift further from their grasp. then, in a reckless surge of raw emotion, jiho's lips crashed forcefully against mika's, a turbulent blend of anger and longing propelling him forward.

"you're so foolish, mika," jiho exclaimed, his voice laced with frustration and hurt. "i thought you knew me too well, understood why i'm like this. yet, you keep saying that, but on the other hand, you do things that are completely opposite of what you're saying. how am i supposed to trust you when your actions contradict your words?" he paused, his gaze piercing into hers, searching for any hint of remorse or understanding.

"and jiyong hyung," jiho continued, his tone growing bitter, "he seems to like you so much. you even got a chance to have a date with him. aren't you taking it too far? are you so happy to break my heart like it's nothing? six years of memories and love mean nothing to you compared to that one day he asked you out, huh?" his words were like daggers, each one punctuating the growing chasm between them.

jiho's hand instinctively went to rub his own cheek, still stinging from mika's slap. "whatever it is," he declared, his voice tinged with a mix of anger and resignation, "i will return the same pain that you inflicted on me, doubling it up so you'll realize just how hurtful it was for me to make this decision. maybe jiyong hyung will care for you, i guess, since you'll be running to him for comfort after this." his words hung heavy in the air, a final warning of the consequences of her actions.

@α jeon jiho『ʟᴇᴏ』 “i’m the one making it difficult? wow that’s rich coming from you, jiho.”

Mika had enough at this point but still respected him enough not to give him the reactions he’d been trying to wring out of her. She knew he could be an but hoped he’d be different around her, clearly she wasn’t safe from his jealous wrath. Yanking her wrist from his grip proved a little too hard since he held on well but with a bit of force, it was freed. His eyes felt like they were burning holes into her, something she’d never been too familiar with either. Yes, she did break up with him but not bet he didn’t mean anything to her— he meant so much to her that she didn’t want to hold him back.

The loud slap she’d given him on his cheek echoed through the lounge as the tears brimmed in her eyes. “Don’t you dare say like that! I haven’t been reveling in anything nor have the six years been nothing to me. They were everything to me, you were everything to me but you’re never going to believe me. You’re just gonna keep claiming that i’m lying, like you never knew who i was.” The tears were now falling down her cheeks and there was tightness rising up to her chest as this was uncomfortable but there was no other time than now. “It’s bad enough for you to think I’m the bad guy here but don’t pretend like i’ve never been honest with you. Fine be stubborn all you want, i don’t blame you for that, i get why you are but don’t disrespect me.”

@❀ takahashi mika ᵐᵃⁿᵃᵍᵉʳ jiho's frustration simmered beneath the surface as he struggled to contain his emotions. with a quick, almost instinctive movement, he reached out and clasped mika's wrist, halting her progress through the lounge. his grip firm, he guided her towards a secluded corner, ensuring their exchange would remain unseen by prying eyes. releasing her wrist, he let out a sharp exhale, his annoyance palpable in the air between them.

"why are you making this so difficult?" jiho's voice was laced with a mixture of anger and hurt, his words hanging heavy in the charged atmosphere.
"you're the one who created this mess, do you even realize how much pain you've caused? you must be reveling in all the attention you're getting from my bandmates," he retorted bitterly, his jealousy seeping into his tone.

"but what about me? do i mean anything to you anymore, or was our six years together just a fleeting moment for you to discard?"

@α jeon jiho『ʟᴇᴏ』 A familiar scent entered her once silent atmosphere, it was his perfume. ‘It couldn’t be…’ she thought but these were answered once she heard his voice which made her freeze up. He’d been avoiding her as of late and she had been moving out of his way. Mika straightened herself up and wipes the tears that were suddenly coming down her cheeks. It had been a while since she heard his voice, especially directed towards her and this time it had no warmth compared to what she had been accustomed to.

“Oh, Jiho..” Of course the follow up question had to be asked. She never had one to begin with but he doesn’t believe her or doesn’t want to, either way he was so wrong. She cleared and gently shook her head. “No.. I was just about to head home. thought i’d get some air first.” She said with her back still turned against him. Seeing him would only make her heart break even more unless it was through a screen but.. there he was after a long while.

“Anyway, I’ll get going now. Sorry.” She said while grabbing her bag and turning around to walk towards the door and past him so he wouldn’t say anything else. It was bad enough that he still thought she had a date, she wasn’t even ready to do that unlike him.

@❀ takahashi mika ᵐᵃⁿᵃᵍᵉʳ jiho scanned the messages from the chat before sighing out of frustration. '– i hate this,' he grumbled in annoyance at the way his own member was trying to flirt with his ex – not that he minded about it anyways. he stuffed his phone inside his pocket and made his way out of the practice room, storming onto the rooftop, a place where he could calm himself down.

he didn't know if it was a good thing or not – the way he entered the sky lounge, his steps got halted when he stumbled upon the female that he used to love. was she crying? his heart skipped a beat at the sight of her, but his cold demeanor took control over his body as he walked towards her nonchalantly, with a small smirk tugging at the corner of his lips.

"what are you doing here? thought you were on a date?" he asked, of course, to bait her emotion."

@α jeon jiho『ʟᴇᴏ』 The cool night air gently kissed her face, drying her tear stains as well-- it was a rough day. Mika who was usually so put together also had her breaking point but also made sure it wasn't so obvious unlike at home, where she was still suffering from endless nights of tears and despair. It was still so fresh and he was still so angry with her but it's not like she could do anything about it. She couldn't blame him either, six years were gone in the blink of an eye; she would be upset too.

With a deep sigh, she wiped her tears and looked out into the city while getting lost in her thoughts to mute out the world. If things were up to her, she never would have done it even if their careers would be at risk. She could only hope he would realize it one day or give her a chance to be heard. For now, there was nothing to do but take it. She lowered her head with another sigh, trying her best not to shed any more tears until she could return home. Not here, not while he's here.