❀ backstage

@♀ seo jiyoung『ᴊᴀᴅᴇ』 //lets out a soft chuckle when you mention your manager, lightly brushing the tip of my nose against yours//
Of course, of course, ~ I shall ask her later. I haven't seen her yet though. Did she come here with you?
//my eyes glance down just as your tongue pokes out to wet your lips and that successfully almost made me groan//
I did. But I wonder how you taste without any alcoholic drinks...
//leaning my face even closer to you only to stop with a small gap in between our lips, giving you a little chance to choose if you want to close the gap or back away. With my heart hammering hard, I just hope you can't hear how loud it's beating right now//

@❀ jeon minjun『ᴀᴄᴇ』ˢᵒˡᵒⁱˢᵗ You might have to ask my manager for that - you know her right?
*tilts my head, my lips falling open, the tip of my tongue poking out just to wet them*
I'm not scared of you.
You're not scared either, you know the way I taste.

@♀ seo jiyoung『ᴊᴀᴅᴇ』 Then for a start, what about I take you out for a dinner date tonight? I hope your schedule is still open.
//raises my brow, a mischievous grin formed on my lips as I lean in even closer to you//
Is that so? Then what if I kiss you now?
You're not scared, are you~?

@❀ jeon minjun『ᴀᴄᴇ』ˢᵒˡᵒⁱˢᵗ We will have to see about that too.
Let's see what you've got then.
*squints at you, my eyes flicking to your mouth for just a second*
Be careful, mister. I kissed you once, I'm not scared of your cooties.

@♀ seo jiyoung『ᴊᴀᴅᴇ』 Please, I've been doing this for quite some time already. It's not hard for me. The real question is are /you/ prepared, Ji?
//leans down to your level, still grinning as I stare at your eyes//
Mhm, I was holding myself back to not make you uncomfortable before, but now, I'mma go all out. For you.

@❀ jeon minjun『ᴀᴄᴇ』ˢᵒˡᵒⁱˢᵗ * an eyebrow, having tensed up before but now that your whole demeanor changed, mine also relaxes, suddenly entertained by your new attitude, the slight cockiness now matching mine*
Oh really? You know I'm not easy to handle too right? Are /you/ prepared?
*can't help but also smile, enjoying seeing your joyful face more than anything so far*
Is that so... We will have to see about that then, huh?

@♀ seo jiyoung『ᴊᴀᴅᴇ』 //keeps quiet and just lets you explain yourself. Little by little I can feel myself getting more relaxed compared to before when all the anxiousness still filled my whole being. Let out a soft chuckle in the end as I took a step forward, already knowing what my answer would be//
I guess...that's a good enough reason. If you are willing to do just that, then let me show you what you've been missing and what you can have if- no, when you are my girlfriend. I will make you fall for me, Seo Jiyoung. More than you ever liked my brother. So you better be prepared.
//finally a wide grin appears on my face as if a huge load has been lifted off my shoulders//
I'll make you fall so hard that when I properly confess to you, you can't say no. Hehe

@❀ jeon minjun『ᴀᴄᴇ』ˢᵒˡᵒⁱˢᵗ *purses my lips, thinking and realizing you are right, and you couldn't just risk it again after everything*
I don't want to lead you on, or get your hopes up to no use. I just want to... try.
You are not a rebound. There is nothing to rebound from after all. And it is not pity. I would never do that, I respect you. If I didn't want it - I wouldn't ask, I would told you to forget about me and I would stay away.
*sighs and blinks slowly, looking up at you*
I don't want to make empty promises. I don't know what I want, I'm so confused. But I have been thinking a lot... and thinking about you... and I would like to give it a shot. To have the opportunity to do better this time, to look at you with fresh eyes. To look at Jeon Minjun, not Jiho's little brother.
But it goes two ways. I know what I don't want - i don't want to chase someone who doesn't want me anymore.

@♀ seo jiyoung『ᴊᴀᴅᴇ』 make me understand then, Jiyoung. I don't want to get my hopes up after I finally mend my heart.
I heard you clearly to take you out
but... why? Am I just a rebound or was it just a pity after hearing that I love you?
//sighs as i lean back against the door//
make me understand if you really genuinely want me, Ji. Please.

@❀ jeon minjun『ᴀᴄᴇ』ˢᵒˡᵒⁱˢᵗ Why wouldn't...
*inhales and blinks a couple times, before my brows furrow, looking slightly mad*
Why are... Don't put words in my mouth! When did I say I didn't like you? I literally told you to take me out, Jeon Minjun.
No, we should /not/ go back outside. Because obviously, you have not understood anything.

@♀ seo jiyoung『ᴊᴀᴅᴇ』 It's fine, really. I mean, you were liking someone else, so of course you wouldn't notice anything else. I don't blame you. Really.
//gives your back a little pat before pulling away from the hug but still keeping you in an arm distance, remembering how wasted I was that night and woke up the next day with a massive headache from drinking too much. Reaches up to lightly pat your cheek//
Thank you for not hating me for kissing you like that. It's more than I could ever ask for.
and uh... because you wouldn't do it again? I mean- you don't even like me that way so... yeah hahaha
//takes a step back, forcing out a smile as i try to lift the heavy atmosphere//
well, thank you for the talk... should we...go back outside?

@❀ jeon minjun『ᴀᴄᴇ』ˢᵒˡᵒⁱˢᵗ *buries my face in your chest, feeling so safe, even though I don't deserve to, I steal a moment where I can relax from all of this*
I should have known... I didn't pay any attention to you, or at least not the attention you deserved, and you were always so sweet and kind to me.
*gets quiet when you mention you are sorry for the kiss, thinking you regret kissing me, but then listens close when you explain, shaking my head before speaking*
It wasn't advantage. I came onto you. I never asked you if you were okay. I took advantage of you, if anything. You just responded. Honestly, it would've been even worse if you pushed me away, I would've felt even worse, think about it this way.
*tries a little smile*
You didn't take advantage of me, there is nothing to forgive. I felt... well, I felt like trash, but kissing you... and getting kissed back, definitely made it a little bit better. I wasn't forcing myself. I wanted it. I told you.
Why... why would it be the only time I kissed you...

@♀ seo jiyoung『ᴊᴀᴅᴇ』 H-huh?
//blinked for a few time as you blurted that word out, just stare at you as you talk. But when I see your eyes watered, I could only sigh while letting you finish talking before stepping closer, pulling you into a tight hug, hoping to at least I can assure you this way//
Shh. You didn't know about my feelings, I have no reason to hate you or anything like that.
You were never a monster to me. So don't ever think badly about yourself. and as for the kiss... I am sorry though.
I shouldn't have take an advantage of the situation... kissing you like that...when I knew your heart were breaking at that moment. I'm sorry for what I did. If Taeyong didn't step in... I...didn't even want to imagine. I felt like a total , I shouldn't have kiss you when you were forcing yourself like that, but at the same time... I was happy you kissed me since I knew that moment would be the only time you kissed me.... Please forgive me for taking advantage of you.

@❀ jeon minjun『ᴀᴄᴇ』ˢᵒˡᵒⁱˢᵗ *i sense we are both blabbering, stuttering, a bambling bumbling band of baboons, and it irks me to no end*
*i open my mouth a couple times between your sentences, to just close it quickly, until I just blurt out*
Take me out.
*and suddenly the floodgates are open*
On a date or with a shotgun, honestly doesn't matter.
I heard everything. I saw you blaming yourself and blaming Jiho-oppa, and... and I heard... everything you said about me. And I am so sorry. I am so sorry for what I did to you... on your birthday, I didn't know you felt that way... I've been thinking about it so much, I... I don't even know how you even talk to me right now, when I treated you so badly. I was really a monster to you and I'm so so sorry. I also heard that Jiho-oppa knew... about my feelings... I don't know what to think of that even.
*my eyes water, but not that much to start crying, moist enough to make me blink the tears away quickly*
I've reflected a lot and found that my feelings changed a lot after this... I want to say I got over my feelings for him, I hope it's true... But whatever the case, you should never blame yourself and talk down on yourself like this, you are... you are so amazing MInjun-ah, and I... we both treated you so badly.
And he is your brother, so it would be much easier to forgive him, but you don't have to forgive me - but I will say: I am sorry for what it did to you, but I'm not sorry for doing it. I am not sorry for kissing you.

@♀ seo jiyoung『ᴊᴀᴅᴇ』 //follows in closely after though sticking closer to the door due to the limited space inside the dressing room. Must've a place where they keep the props. Stares at you as you rambled on but when the chance given to me to speak, I find it hard to start talking even though I know we only have a limited time//
Uh.. right- about rooftop-
I mean... uh...s-since when were you up there...?
w-why were you up there- wait no- I mean- Of course you can be there, it's a public space anyway- but uh... well... uh...
//rubs my nape as I look down, unable to meet your eyes as my ears turn red//
h-how much of it did you hear...?

@❀ jeon minjun『ᴀᴄᴇ』ˢᵒˡᵒⁱˢᵗ *talking to Aiko in the corridors about some of the performances, exchanging notes, I can't help but feel as if I'm being watched, a gaze on my nape, so when she turns to walk away, I exhale and set on a path to find the reason for the discomfort*
*the reason finds me well enough on his own, curse his long legs*
Hi. Y-yeah, I also wanted... Let's-Let's come in here.
*quickly opens the first door I see and ushers us both inside, finding it to be the cramped dressing room of someone unknown*
Right. I wanted to, uh... Even back up on the rooftop, I... no, you start.

@♀ seo jiyoung『ᴊᴀᴅᴇ』 //sighing for the nth time of the day as I lean against the wall during the break time. Being completely absorbed by another matter though of course I did not forget my duty as a judge to keep a note for the trainees' performance. But the rather stiffy atmosphere in the judge panel booth need to be stopped and I need to find that one person to solve it and face the consequences//
//looking around, I try to spot a blonde hair amidst a lot of head around, which was not quite an easy task given, even with having an advantage with my height. When I finally spotted the correct blonde and not my sister, I take a deep breath before making my way to her//
Jade? I'm sorry it's so sudden but... can we...talk?

Rie's fire flame flavor is buuuurning!
//grins as i look at rie, giving thumbs up

good job out there, Rie-chan!
you definitely slayed it
-gives thumbs up tp the bright red haired girl-

/bounces back to the backstage after her performance, sighing in relief/
phew
at least i didn't get my tongue tied

"Yo! Your King has arrived!" He grinned as he arrived at the backstage. If one sees it just the way it is, they might think that Sunghoon didn't feel nervous at all when the truth, is he was still shaking, in both nervousness and excitement. His eyes landed on Karina who seemed like couldn't stop checking her appearance in the mirror. The big grin was still on his face as he made his way closer to the girl "Yo Karina! Ready for the evaluation?"

Karina trudges nervously, checking herself in the mirror countless of times as she took deep breaths to calm her nerves; it had been a while since they had such a large scale trainee evaluation, with the trainers and even debuted idols watching her perform her piece on stage. All she prayed for was to put her practice into a perfect performance without any mess ups, to not be of an embarrassment to the company and most of all, herself.