𓈒𓏸 eunbi’s house ༄.°

@✧˚ j. wonwoo The beach that's a great idea we can leave in the morning, and come back in the early afternoon then have a small family/friends party.
/taken off guard, but couldn't stop the light blush/
Thank you you got more handsome yourself
/hand you the bags/
Beside food and drinks everything else they need are in there. They should be back soon, and one of their wish is about to come true to spend more time with you.
/think for a moment/
They can eat anything no allergies, but they are super hyper.

@✧˚ l. eunbi (/ listened to her words, each one sinking deep into him. he felt a mix of relief and guilt all at once, the mention of the kids, how they knew who he was to them, and the weight of being a father—it was all real now, and he couldn’t deny the responsibility that came with it ; when she pulled him into a hug, he melted into her embrace, his hands coming to pat gently on her back ; as she wheeled away to pack, he rubbed his face with his hands, trying to clear his thoughts for a moment. when she came back, her question caught him a little off guard, but he smiled softly, thinking about what he wanted to do for the twins.) i've been thinking about that, they’re growing so fast. I think this year, I was thinking we could take them somewhere special for their birthday. maybe a trip to the beach? they’re two almost three now, so they’re curious about everything. I thought we could build sandcastles with them, let them dip their feet in the water, and feel the sand, something simple, but... meaningful.
(/he looks up at her with a small smiles) and you know, you're getting prettier.

@✧˚ j. wonwoo /quietly listen not even speaking after you finished talking it was a even a minute before I started to move it was a mixed of tears and, and just over all feeling like a huge weight was finally lifted off my shoulders/
You are responsible to your work, to protecting the people, and now to your family. The kids always knew who you are to them, and you're doing a great job as their father.
/nod my head happy to hear you said it's not because you want to prove something/
Remember what I said we're not perfect mistakes will be made it's nature. Ahh the redo at this time as you said let's just take things slow. I mean it when I said I really hope things work between us again.
/blinks mainly trying to clear my eyes before getting out of my wheelchair to sit down next to you before pulling you into a hug/
You can't said you're not going anywhere though since you never knew when you will get call in again or in that case taking the twins with you. I'll pack enough clothes and stuff to least them until their birthday.
/gets up to sit back in my wheelchair before looking back at you/
I'm sorry for waiting this long before having this talk not an excuse, but you know how it is to earn my trust in the first place. It's even harder to get back once you lost it...I just had to make sure.
/rolls away to pack the twins luggage before rolling back about ten minutes later/
Now I know I refused your input last year, but do you have anything you want to do for them this year?

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@✧˚ l. eunbi (/watches you carefully, his eyes heavy with the weight of everything you’ve said, swallows hard, emotion pressing against his chest, but he fights to keep his voice steady) I… I know I’ve failed you. I’ve failed them.. I didn’t know back then what it meant to be responsible for more than just myself, and I left without thinking of what it would do to you or them and every day I regret that. I don’t want them to go through the same hurt either. I’ve spent so much time wondering how to fix this, how to be a father when I never had the chance to be one from the start. (/his gaze softens as he looks at you, seeing the pain you’re still carrying and knowing he’s the cause of it.) i’m not doing this to prove anything anymore. I’m doing this because I love them, because they deserve to have their dad in their lives. I won’t hurt them, not again. I can’t promise I won’t make mistakes… but I’ll never abandon them — and if we’re talking about a redo... I’ve thought about that day more times than I can count. I don’t want to push you, but if there’s a chance for us to build something new, I’m willing to take it, no matter how slowly. (/reaches up, wiping the tear that had slipped down your cheek.) nothing much. i just want to be here, with you and them. if that means starting with baseball games and daddy-daughter outings, then that’s what I’ll do. one step at a time but I’m not going anywhere this time, I swear..

@✧˚ j. wonwoo /open my eyes as tears flow down like a river due to a mixed of relief, pain, anger, and joy not being one to normally cried in front of others; however this was one of those rare times/
Do you know what they wish for? It's just for you to stay to spend more time with you. As much as they love their uncle, and are super close with him especially when he was there seeing him as the number one male figure. Aera wanted to go on daddy/daughter outing, and Daehyun just want to go to a baseball game just once with you.
/gives your hands a light squeeze/
And you been trying to make things right since the first day you step right back into our lifes, and they both love you like I said before you're their birth dad nothing is going to change that; however if you ever think you're doing this more to prove something instead of I'm doing this because I love them then I will do everything in my power to make sure you keep away from us.
/looks at you with eyes still holding a bit of pain/
I never want them to go through what I went though I hope you understand that.
/looks away for a moment as the wedding day played out in my mind caughting myself wonder what if/
One step at a time if things work our great maybe we can have a redo for our wedding. If not, you'll still be allow to see the little ones as long as you're not going to hurt them.
/stay quiet for a few moments before speaking in a low voice/
Really excited yet terrified of moving forward, and please do. That's all for my end. Do you have anything you want to add?

@✧˚ l. eunbi (/listened in silence, his gaze softening as you spoke ; closed his eyes for a moment, letting your words sink in, feeling the weight of everything he'd been carrying as he opened them again, there was a mix of guilt and longing in his expression) I know I messed up. I thought I was doing what was best, but... I see now how much I hurt you, how much I hurt them. (/when you reached out for his hands, he hesitated for a second before taking yours, holding them gently as if afraid to lose you again) you’re right. I have to do this because I want to—because I love them, not just to prove something. I want to be their father, and I want to make things right. even if it takes time. (/looked down for a moment, the weight of his regret evident) I don’t expect things to go back to the way they were... I know it’s not possible. but I want to try. for them, for us.(/ his grip tightened slightly as he looked back at you, his voice filled with determination) one step at a time, like you said. I don’t want to make the same mistakes again. I’m ready to move forward—together. and I'll meet up with your brother and apologise to him soon.

@✧˚ j. wonwoo /close my eyes as everything was now finally out/
And yet I'm still sorry no matter how angry I am I shouldn't have done that
/small smile/
You already did for the most part; however you need to do this because you want to not just because you want to prove something. You have to want to be here as a father because you love them.
/raise an eyebrow/
But nothing he was there for me since we first met, and he's an important person in my life. It wasn't easy to get my forgiveness either, but you did. I am sure you can get his also not sure how long it will take though.
/reach out for your hands/
What happened could never be change nor can things be fix to the point for going back to the ways use to be at least not a hundred percent. We just have to take it one step at a time, and move forward with the past guiding us to not make the same big mistake again. We're not perfect, but I'm hopeful for us for our family for our future

@✧˚ l. eunbi (/flinched when her fist connected with his arm, but he didn't react much more than that , knowing he had hurt her and the moment she raised her voice, he swallowed hard, feelings his throat tighten.) I know, I know I should have trust you. I was wrong and I've spent every moment regretting it. (/his heart ache when he saw her tears, he didn't try to comfort her — not yet. she had every right to express her rage right now, the least he could do was hear her; shook his head when she apologized) no, please dont be sorry. I deserve it. and of course , I'll do it. I'll take care of them on my own. whatever you need. I want to prove to you that I'm not running away again — but your brother. uhh. I know it won't be easy, since I hurt him too. but if that's what it takes, I'll do it. I'll try to talk it out with him. (/took a deep breath, his gazes softening when he looks at you ) I know it will take some time for me to fix things between us. I'll prove that to you and to the twins. one day at a time.

@✧˚ j. wonwoo Trigger warnings: punching, yelling

/huff in both annoyance and anger/
You didn't think leaving your bride to be wouldn't hurt like crazy? You're darn right it wasn't fair to me to the twins that were still in my belly back then.
/with limited moments I do have I stood up punching your arm before sitting back down as my eyes start to tear up as years of pain overwhelmed her logically thinking/
Oh that makes me so mad that you couldn't trust me to handle it. RELATIONSHIP IS BUILD ON TRUST! I TRUSTED YOU WITH MY PAST (except with her being a writer) YOU KNEW HOW HARD IT IS FOR ME TO OPEN UP LET ALONE LOVING SOMEONE, AND YOU REALLY SAID YOU SHOULD HAVE TRUST ME.
/take a few shakey breaths to calm down/
Sorry, I should have hit you or lose my cool like that was on me
/eyes start to tear up more not sure if it's still from anger or sadness, maybe even both/
Knowing how you are I can believe that. You are mainly a man of your words after all.
/held the eye contact/
I missed you too I always did; however I still need to make sure of two more things remember? One I know you come by to visit,and take us out from time to time; however for peace of mind I need to know. I need to how you will act if you're around them if I need to leave them for a few days to a couple weeks for work or if something comes up.
/sheepishly smile/
So I know this is not fair to you, but from now until their birthday you will be taking care of them without my help although I will be calling every night to wish them a good sleep. The second might be even harder for you, but if you really want us to start over again you have to get my brother forgiveness also.

@✧˚ l. eunbi I really didn't know, I didn't know how much it would hurt you when I left like that. it wasn't fair for you. you deserved an explanation and I was too occupied to give it to you. and also I thought you'd be better off without me, that it would be easier that way but I see now how wrong i was. (/ runs a hand through his hair with a soft sigh ) I never meant for you to feel that way. I should have trust you. trusted that you can handle the truth about my work. (/stares down at the rings) I know it might never be enough, but I swear I'll keep trying , I want to make this right, with you. with us.(/looking up to meet your eyes ) if you'll let me, I'll put that ring back on your finger. but this time it'll mean more than just a promise. I'm never leaving again, not without making sure you know everything you deserve to know. I have missed you so damn much, love.

@✧˚ j. wonwoo I'll be honestly yes I did try to move on try to date a couple other people; however it just didn't work out mainly because there were just after my wealth, and not me as a person.
/making sure no emotions was heard as I carefully think about what you just said/
I know you might get called again that's something I was prepared for when we started to date. What I wasn't prepare for though was you not leaving a word.
/shake my head/
You don't have to tell me where if you can't I just need to know you left for work and if possible how long. I know sometimes you can't say where, and that's fine.
/sigh placing the box into your hand/
Do you honestly think I kept it all of these years just to return it to you especially when I thought something happened? I kept it because I couldn't bring myself to get rid of it- the memoires it holds the love that was once share. I fully forgive you now for what happened in the past.
/let out a small smile/
Please don't think I haven't noticed how much you been trying to make up for the past the past couple of years. I just need to make sure of two more thing, and then
/point towards the box/
You can someday you can put that ring back onto my finger

@✧˚ l. eunbi (/sighs softly) I should've left a note. you're right. but I thought it'd be easier if I didn't. if you thought I wasn't coming back at all, then maybe you could move on. (/bites his lips, as he took a slow breath, feeling the weight of his past decisions press on his chest) I didn't want you waiting. I didn't want you to feel abandoned, but I guess that's exactly what I did. (/rubbed his nape as he struggling to find the right words ) you see, I can't promise I'll never get called again, that's a fact. but I swear, if I ever leave, I'll let you know. I'll make sure you know exactly where I am going and why. (/heaves as he watched you left the room and waits until you returned with the small box — the engagement ring between them, his hands trembled as he reached out for it) w why are you returning back this to me ? can't you just keep it ?

@✧˚ j. wonwoo /trying to keep calm as you speak only letting out a gasp upon seeing all the scars/
You couldn't even left a quick note? Did you know I just thought you got cold feet and will come back during the wedding that I didn't even cancel it?
/let out a shaky breathe/
We're all glad you made it back; however you said you want to take care of us. How will I know if you get another call you're not just going to leave again without telling us? You're their birth dad nothing will change that I'm not kicking you out of their life.
/close my eyes thinking carefully about what to say before opening my eyes/
Wait here
/go get something from my bedroom coming back with a small box that held the engagement ring before handing it over without another word/

@✧˚ l. eunbi (/took his time to listen as he heaves softly, looking up at you ) I know, but something really happened to me during those times. on our supposed wedding day, I was getting a call by my team. I was hesitant bc I know I really got to leave. after I pick up their call, I was rushed to mission place and I couldn't get to tell you and — (/lifted up his shirt to show you his scars on his abdomen before he close it. ) I got attacked in the sea. I was hospitalised and took me a year to recover. still — I couldn't reach out to you because of the connections. I tried so many times but it's failed. the mission took another year to settle down which is why I'm.. coming back .. look, I'm — really sorry about what I've done. I think,, it's fine if you can't accept me back, just — pls let me take care of you guys. as their father — and as your .. friend... since I know the pain would be too much if we're going with something more.

@✧˚ j. wonwoo We well technically I been putting off this talk for almost two years now. To be honest I never even expected to see you again a year after those two were born. I thought something happened to you when you just up and disappear. The only reason why I let you back into my life back then was because I didn't want to block out who their birth father is even if you might disappear on them someday also.
/sigh just stopping there for now just wanting to take it one topic at a time/

@✧˚ l. eunbi (/waits and helped them out with their stuffs too, as he pecks their cheeks , smiling and waves his hand towards them) have fun and don't be naughty, listen to uncle and auntie yeah? take care. appa loves you both so much (/his smiles fade away when the kids was out from his sight , turned his body around and takes a seat opposite of you with a soft sigh ) sure.

@✧˚ j. wonwoo I know trust me I know
/once everyone finished eating I wash the dishes/
You're welcome
/after washing go get the kids ready/
Remembering you two behave and have fun and mommy loves you
/said once they are being picked up before kissing their forehead/
We will love you too mommy bye appa
/close the front door before sighing/
Please do sit on the sofa this is going to be a long talk
/rolls myself over near the sofa/

@✧˚ l. eunbi I appreciate it. please know that. (/muttered him between his breathe as he looks at her as he nods , starting to eat his portions — finishing it off with the drink ) mm. the foods are great. thank you.

@✧˚ j. wonwoo It's hard to forget when you're allergic to it
/nods my head before getting us drinks/
Remember to chew properly
/semi fake a smile knowing what you were about to call me as I sat down passing one of the drink towards you before starting to eat/

@✧˚ l. eunbi (/ looking up when you starts calling out for them and chuckles as he also makes his way into the dining table ; taking his seat and looks at you — somehow feels touched that you still remembers ) ah no need to, this one is pretty good to me already, so don't trouble yourself more. thanks — for still remember. (/smiles a little and turns to look at the kids ) let's eat ? come and sit, lo— I mean eunbi.

@✧˚ j. wonwoo /ten minutes later she put the food on the table just some sandwiches cut up to be bite size, and juice for the kids while I made veggie noddle stir fry for the adults/
Kids food is ready
/heard them put away their toys before running towards the table, smiles helping into their seat then glanced at you/
I remembered you can't eat any seafood I hope veggie noddle stir fry is ok if not I can make something else for you.

@✧˚ l. eunbi oh alright, if you said so. then I'll just be around and play with them, yeah? (/takes a deep breathe as he makes his way out of the kitchen, knowing the situation is pretty ed up for him later on ; goes towards the twins and starts to play around with them )

daehyun : appaa look ,, a ship that you gave me !!! (/showing off his ship toys )

(/chuckles and pinches his cheek gently) it's so cool !! and aera what do you have ?

aera : I got a fox doll that appa gave !! (/hugging the plushie close to her )

(/smiles as he ruffles her hair) do you like it? (/aera smiles as she also nodding ; keeps playing around with them as both of them wants to climb off his body )

@✧˚ j. wonwoo I'm sure it's a simple light meal since the kids will be eating a more fuller one later
/think for a moment/
I believe their going out to eat at a new place can't remember the name of it though, but all the kids are super excited for it in any case it should be ready in about ten minutes, and my friend will come back them up in about an hour.
/doesn't even glance at you while she makes the food wanting to take this time to gather her thoughts/

@✧˚ l. eunbi well, are you sure you didn't want my help with anything? (/looks up at you somehow feel heavy to leave you alone in the kitchen ) I can help though — even a little bit.. (/bites his lips) oh alright. I understand that. sure I can wait. (/nods as he knows that he deserves all of those screaming at his face)

@✧˚ j. wonwoo /smiles though it was fake/
I'll call the three of you once it's ready, and they always have fun over at the place
/shake my head/
Later just later we might end up a emotional wreak or start screaming I don't want them to see or hear that

@✧˚ l. eunbi (/furrowed his eyebrows as he stays silent at your words , nodding his head when you said they'll go to your mom's friend place. ) as long as they are alright and have fun, sure. mmm yeah, you're right. (/turns to look at you) hm?

@✧˚ j. wonwoo I can't make a guest work you can just play with the twins before they go to a little playdate with one of my mom friend place.
/glances at the twins before looking at you/
While their gone we should for once without them being to hear or see anything
/with limited movements she stood up to reach for something before closing the door/
Knowing us they really do not need to be around for this

@✧˚ l. eunbi (/smiles thinly upon your remarks as he heaves softly as he gets up and stood next to you ) do you need help with anything? yeah I figured I'll stay for a while. (/steal a glance at the twins who are playing with each others) if you don't mind, of course.

@✧˚ j. wonwoo You came to see them didn't you? It would be rude of me to just send you away when they want to play with you
/washes her hand taking out some things from the refrigerator/
Are you staying or not? I have to start cooking