Felix's Apartment

@‡ Felix Staying over?
/he echoes, frowning a little at the thought/
I dunno, maybe. We'll see I guess...
Depends on how good your cooking is.
Do you have an extra bed? Or would I be sleeping on the couch?

@† Hyunjin fine then be like this
I am cooking for your hungry /I chuckle
/I move the ingredients into the bowl and peek at you
then don't go home
how about staying over?
I actually hoped you will

@‡ Felix But my smiles are fake, that is fake Hyunjin
This is real me
/he points out, resting his arm over his eyes/
The real me is tired, and hungry, and not looking forward to going back home later
Or going to work tomorrow

@† Hyunjin Only when it is genuine/pout and look away again
/pouring water into the pot
Just understand I want to see your genuine you
Not fake Hyunjin who tries to please someone
But Hyunjin that does what he wants himself
I actually liked seeing your smile, it's warm/I whisper

@‡ Felix If you want me to smile I can, it's not that hard to do. Will that make you happy?
/he asked, his eyes still closed as he relaxed on the couch/
I guess most people seem to feel better when I smile, I don't really get why

@† Hyunjin /chuckles/ I am quite worried
Sorry I take stuff negatively I am afraid to make this meet unhappy for you, I wish you smiled more like betore
/peek at you trough my shoulder/ I am glad

@‡ Felix No, I said I signed up for fun. As in the signing up was the fun part.
You shouldn't worry so much kid, if I didn't want to be here I wouldn't be. I'm not so nice that I'd spend time with someone if I didn't want to.

@† Hyunjin No I am not, I did think you were more gentle though so my first impression was broken but I did want to meet someone new and interesting
And you are interesting, very in fact/I hum and put the chopped greens in a bowl/
You said you want fun...I am not fun...

@‡ Felix I didn't even mention your cooking.
/shaking his head a little he closes his eyes/
Why would I be disappointed? I had no expectations going into this
If anyone has the right to be disappointed its you kiddo
I'm sure you were hoping for something different

@† Hyunjin What is the fun for you?
/I hum curiously/ are you now saying my cooking would be not fun ? /I puff my cheeks a little as I chop the greens/ did I... disappoint you?
/ I chop it on last counter so my back is facing you, bitting my bottom lip./

@‡ Felix Whatever you want to do I guess
/stretching out he lays down on the couch with a sigh, closing his eyes/
I'm not really much company, so, whatever is whatever as far as I'm concerned
I don't know how this auction thing was supposed to work, I signed up for fun mostly

@† Hyunjin You have my consent to do that/laugh
But you're free to let me know before doing it I doubt I would reject such rare offer that I doubt it would even happen/stick tongue out
Would you like to look around?
The 2nd floor is bathroom and a bedroom also a tv zi think we could watch something later and maybe cuddle if you don't mind

@‡ Felix See? You can't even till when I'm faking it.
/he teased, going to sit down and watching you with vague curiosity/
Sorry to disappoint you but I'm not likely to pin you down out of the blue. Not really my thing.
I prefer consent, I don't like any of that dub-con bull. I'm not going to be pinned as a offender, no thank you,

@† Hyunjin /laugh/ but you said you are faking it, what kind of idea you want me to get? When one fakes it means they don't enjoy it
But I misunderstood I apologize, if you feel like you are getting pent up you're free to pin me down whenever/chuckle as I look trough ingredients, taking out the greens and chicken/
Ah!/rub my forehead/ everyone really likes to flick me
I think it is my first time seeing you amile, it fits you Hyunjin

@‡ Felix Who says I don't enjoy it? I mean I get off, it feels good, that's enough for me to consider it enjoyable I guess.
I'm not really that complicated. I think you're making me way more complicated than I am.
/chuckling a little he reaches out and flicks your forehead/
You're weird kid, but sure, we can hang out. Whatever you wanna do.
I guess I'm yours for the week anyway

@† Hyunjin But if you don't want to or enjoy it what is the point? It feels like you would me and then just leave, it's scary /shake head/ I want to spend my time with yoy instead
So I guess we won't have , sorry to disappoint you
Let's be friends instead, I won't use you for your body and you won't neeed to compare me to all the men that pay you for /huff and open the fridge/

@‡ Felix Then we won't have ?
/raising an eyebrow he looks at you with confusion/
I don't really know what you're getting at here kid. If you want to we can, if you don't we won't. If you're the type you prefers to be thrown on the ground and stripped then fine, I can do that.
It's just , I don't really know why there needs to be emotion involved. You get off, I get off, we both benefit, right? Isn't that the point?

@† Hyunjin Like I said I can not have if you're not enjoying and faking it/frown/ do you understand?
/pout when you frown
Like I said you might get happy eventually and I wish to be there for you when you do, obviously I'm not the one for your happiness but I really wish you that someday
/pat your shoulder and nod/ yeah do that, as long you don't give up on it

@‡ Felix I'm not the one who needs the emotion from me though.
/he points out, shrugging a little and offering a smile, only for it to drop when you grab his hand and pull him closer, a slight frown curling his lips instead/
Look, I'm not gonna lie to you here kid. I'm not worth it. You can dump a bunch of pennies into an empty well, but you won't fill it up. Even if you dump a hundred pennies in every day.
It would be a waste of effort, and a waste of resources. It's not your job to make me happy, don't put that on yourself. That's not fair to you.
Let me be responsible for my own happiness.

@† Hyunjin That's the thing... it sounds sad... why would you fake it for someone? Live for yourself, Hyunjin...
Damn I really want to see you find happiness one day I am sure it will happen
/I stand up after listening to you taking your hand and pulling you in closer/ then I guess I will be one of the rare creatures in your life that you call friends but I don't mind few skinships and kisses so hope you can bear with me

@‡ Felix I wasn't expecting anything, I think it looks great. Better than what I'm living in
/shrugging he looks around with idle curiosity, wincing a bit when you admit what it is you actually like about /
Right... yeah, I'm not good at the emotional thing. It's just a... birth defect you could say I guess.
I'm kind of just a 'go through the motions' kind of guy. I can fake it, if you want. I'm pretty good at faking emotions, I've had enough practice.
I don't exactly have a lot of friends though so... yeah

@† Hyunjin /I pout and and walk first to unlock the door to my apartment
well, welcome to my place, I believe it isn't as big as you expected but two people fit in nicely
hmm I don't want that, let's do what you want today then not including smoking or any illegal activities
if you don't enjoy it, it's not fun... when I make out, I love the two sweating bodies, the expressions, pleased, excited noises /I hum/ the emotions then, I like it
it is a loss to not sleep with you but I am okay with that, we can just become buddies /I flash a grin and see my cat approaching us/ hi Tigerrr /I squat down to cuddle my two year old wildcat while making baby noises/

@‡ Felix I never said I was good at anything. I'm not really trying to prove that.
/shrugging he slips his hands back into his pockets/
I'm not really into anything either. I just do what people want.
doesn't really do anything for me, but I'm good at hurting people who want to be hurt. So why not use those skills?
I get paid for it outside this club.

@† Hyunjin OH MY GOD /I flail my hands up and down
seriously aish /I growl under my breath with my deep voice
whatever even if I was vanilla I wonder if you would be able to do a good job to please me ether way /stick my tongue out and huff again/
/I hum as I click 2nd floor/ well I like it gentle and also like it rough, I like being choked, spanked and stuff also like to drag my nails down someone's back /I tap my lower lip/ it is fun to tie someone and tease them, I believe I am great tease especially when they can't do nothing about it /nod nod/ is fun too, very fun /nod nod/ I am not very familiar with terms but there is more to the list but how about you? what you're into?

@‡ Felix /snorts a laugh at your reaction, not really believing you but not wanting to argue with you if you don't want to admit it to him/
Sure, sure, whatever you say kid
Definitely not a vanilla , got it
But you know, you'll have to tell me what you actually like. I can't read minds.
And for the record, I don't let anyone tie me up.

@† Hyunjin WHY THE YOU ASK THAT
of course not /frowns at you/ do you think s enter this place?
/crunch my nose at you and shake my head
what the ! man I am no vanilla what makes you think that
is it the wine? /frown/ I don't need to be drunk to please someone in bed
/crosses my arms, highly offended/ I am not saying I am kinkiest man ether since I still have stuff I haven't experienced but for sure I can say I am no vanilla okay
you look like someone who acts though but if I tie you up and tease you, you will beg for me to release you in first ten minutes /I roll my eyes/
/I stop by my apartment and guide you into the elevator/

@† Hoseok /laughs as I walk towards my place with you hand by hand/ no not what I mean, she doesn't let strangers pet her unless she is in a mood to accept strangers which is rare, you can admire her from distance or pet her once and retreat your hand as fast as you can ,/chuckles/ but don't worry /peek at you with wide grin/ kitty lix will accept all the pets~
/open the door to my place / tadah? Um it is small but please don't run away /tighten my grip on your hand/

/getting back inside my apartment first time after moving in I collapse on the bed as I break down in tears, can't believe that someone like me is still around. I can' help but feel cursed. How I ruin other people moods, make them uncomfortable, ruin any building friendship that happens/
/Tiger comes to curl up besides me and I just move to sob into his dark fur/ I only got you, don't I...
I am sorry... I will be more around home from now on...