Jimin's Apartment

@‡ Beomgyu And I want to do more. You and our sons deserve everything and more, baby.
/kisses your forehead as you snuggled close to me/
You better. I'll do everything to keep you happy and safe.
/smiles softly and looks at you, watching as you start to become sleepier, smiling at the sight, it's as if I'm holding a cat starting to fall asleep/
It is. So, go to sleep and I'll be here to take care of you and the boys.
/kisses your forehead yet again, scooting closer to you to have your face buried in my chest and to keep your eyes covered from the light inside the room, keeps rubbing your back and trying to not fall asleep since our babies need to be fed every two hours or so/

@‡ Jimin [H] But you already do everything. You love us, and that's enough.
/sighing happily he snuggles as close as he can without moving too much, mindful of his incision because he doesn't want it to start hurting again when he's so tired. He just wants to sleep for a while and you're so warm and comfortable/
I'll always stay with you silly Minnie
/smiles sleepily, giggling softly at the kiss though he's easily starting to become more asleep than awake as the second slip by/
Yeah, sleep sounds nice
/he agrees almost mindlessly, his eyes closing and he nuzzles into you with a happy sigh, drifting off to sleep within seconds/

@‡ Beomgyu I know I don't deserve too much but thank you for that, baby. I really appreciate it and I want to be able to do more for you and our family.
/smiles softly, ever so gently pulling you closer to my chest as you nuzzled into me/
We all have our fears, baby, but you don't have to face them alone anymore. As you said, I'm here, and I'll always be here for you.
/kisses your forehead, snuggles into you and buries my face into your hair/
And thank you for staying with me, for choosing me, and for loving me so much, Gyu.
/pecks your lips and gently brushes your hair from your face, looking at you lovingly and with so much adoration in my eyes, places one hand behind your head and gives you gentle pats/
Get some rest now, baby. I'll hold you until you wake up again.
/smiles softly/

@‡ Jimin [H] I give you exactly as much credit as you deserve
/giggles softly at the kisses, trying not to make too much noise so he won't wake the babies. Sighing a bit in relief when you take them, because his arms were getting tired and he was very quickly realizing how difficult having twins was going to be. He was going to have to work on his multitasking skills/
/smiling at you when you rejoin him on the bed he moves as slowly as he can to avoid causing himself any pain, curling up with you and resting his arms around you as he nuzzles your chest/
I love you too Jiminnie. I really really do.
I'm terrified to be a parent, and I'm terrified to try to figure out how to raise myself and two babies, but it's a lot less scary when I know you're here with me.
Thank you, for being you.

@‡ Beomgyu You always give me credit, more than what I deserve, but I'm glad that you find us as a perfect fit because I wouldn't want it any other way.
/smiles softly and nuzzles your neck, placing soft kisses up to your cheek, pulling you closer to me and lifting your arm up a bit more as you carry our babies/
As long as both of us are willing to make this relationship work, and most importantly, we love each other, and I have you and our babies, that's all that matters to me.
/starts to take them back to their bed, laying them down one at a time and as I sat back on the bed, I gently and carefully gathered you in my arms and brushes your hair from your face, kisses your forehead/
I'll talk to her. You should get some rest now, baby. I'll be here no matter what happens.
/pecks your lips/
I love you so much, Beomgyu. . .

@‡ Jimin [H] Minnie Mouse, I've never thought that. I've never considered myself too good for anyone. I think we're a good fit, I really do. You're sweet, and wonderful, and you make me happy. What else could I possibly want?
/giggling softly he smiles, relief and grateful to have you and have a family and a future with you/
And I'll always listen and understand you. I want to understand you so that we can live a happy life together. I know that things won't always be absolutely perfect,we will disagree sometimes because that's just normal. I want to be able to work through that though. Listen to each other and mend things if they get a little cracked or broken. I never expect you to be perfect Minnie, I only expect you to try your best and I will too.
/looking down at the peacefully sleeping twins he nods, looking a bit relieved at the idea/
Yes please, would you like to lay them down for me? I think a nap sounds lovely
/looking over at the door thoughtfully he nods slowly in agreement to the suggestion/
She was very nice, I wouldn't mind having her around if she's willing.

@‡ Jimin [H] (I'm sorry love ;;
I have not been feeling well the last couple of days, I'm behind on replies. I promise I've not forgotten you ;;
I'm hoping to get to my replies as soon as I manage a decent nights sleep)

@‡ Beomgyu I never thought of using you. I was just scared of making you feel like I was using you but that was never the case. I always have this thought in the back of my mind, even now, that you're too good to be with someone like me. . .
/smiles as you gave me a few more kisses and hugs you closer/
And I promise to love you and our sons with all my heart, and grow with you as well. Whatever it is that will come our way, we will face it together, and all the differences are already set aside. I will always be here to listen to you and understand you, baby.
/kisses your cheek and then your lips once again, looking at you this time/
You are my partner. We will both build a future for them and our family and give them all of what we didn't have, and as we do that, I'll continue to love you unconditionally and give you all of the things you never had before or lacked back then. As I said, I'm not perfect but I'll do my best to give you and our little ones the life that you three deserve and more.
/kisses you softly for a few seconds and pulls away, pecking your lips and looking down at our twins/
I think they're both sound asleep now. Do you want to maybe, put them down while they nap and we can cuddle while you nap too? Also, I kinda like the nurse from earlier, if you're comfortable with her, maybe we can have her work for us instead so that all you have to focus on is feed our babies and watch her teach us the basics of taking care of our twins.
/kisses your temple/
As much as possible, I don't want you to just handle everything as I don't want you to feel overwhelmed.

@‡ Jimin [H] I wouldn't have blamed you, you know. If you had only been using me to forget about what happened.
What happened wasn't fair to you at all, and I still hate thinking about it. I was so scared for you during that time and I just wanted to help you feel better. I'm glad that you're better now and that you're happy.
/smiling softly he returns the kiss and gives you another one, and then another just for good measure/
I learned a lot too. I always thought that I wanted an older man, but I think I started to realize that I was just using that as an attempt to get the kind parental love and attention that I didn't have at home.
It wasn't that I only wanted an older man, I just wanted to feel like I had a parent who loved me and that wouldn't have been a healthy relationship.
When I started liking you I realized that I shouldn't be looking for someone who would take care of me, I needed to look for someone who would help me grow. Someone I could grow with.
I didn't want to just be a fixture in someone's life, I wanted to be a real partner. I want to build a life with you Jiminnie. I want to build a future where our little ones will grow up loved with all the opportunities in the world to be anything they could dream of.

@‡ Beomgyu /smiles as you leaned back against me and as you kissed me as well, looks down at the twins and continues to listen to you and all of what you're saying/
Baby. . .
/mutters softly and kisses your forehead/
I was also on the fence about being in a relationship, to be honest. Especially with you because I don't want you to think that I'm just using you to forget what happened before and the pain, but when I left the club and you came after me, I realized that I can't really be away from you.
/hugs you closer, resting my chin atop your shoulder as I continue, looking down at the twins, supporting your arms with one of mine as I brush my finger ever so gently over their cheeks/
But as soon as we got together, I soon realized those feelings that I'd brushed off before back then. My fondness towards you, the way that I wait for you to get back, how you brighten up my day just by hearing your voice, how I lowkey get jealous when you have your attention on others. It truly is the small stuff that we often overlook that lets us know how we really feel but I just turned a blind eye to it for a moment, and I know that after leaving and you coming after me to haul me back, I can't make the same mistake twice.
/pulls my head back a bit to look at you, kisses you softly/
And I will never make that mistake, ever again. I want to make you and our family happy and I'll do my best to ensure that.
/smiles softly/

@‡ Jimin /leaning back against you he closes his eyes, he's tired but not so tired that he wants to put the twins down just yet, he wants to hold them for a few more precious minutes/
/admittedly he's relieved to hear you say that, and he smiles into the kiss as he opened his eyes again to look at you/
I always worried that I wasn't really what you wanted and you settled with me because... because you wanted love more than you wanted me. If I'm being honest, there was a point when I worried about that same thing, that I just wanted love and I didn't care who it was with.
I had to do a lot of honest self reflecting for a while after Hyungsoo and even when I first started thinking that I liked you.
I didn't want to go into a relationship just because I wanted a relationship. But I loved spending time with you, I considered you a good friend before I ever considered dating you. I think I fell in love with you slowly but I know that I didn't make a mistake.
I just wanted to be sure that you didn't feel like you had either. We kind of did things a little unorthodox, getting pregnant so suddenly when neither of us planned it... I just want us to have a happy life together Minnie. I really do.

@‡ Beomgyu /smiles as you kissed my cheek and peer over our twins, caressing their cheeks and pulling you closer as I wrap my arms back around your waist/
They really are beautiful, but nothing beats their mommy. You're the goddess.
/kisses your cheek and continues to listen to your words/
God, how did you give me such a wonderful wife.
/gently squeezes your waist, careful to not squeeze your wound and moves my arms up to cradle your arms carrying the babies to not let you get tired carrying them as I can see that you still want to carry them for as long as you could/
It's all worth it, Beomgyu. Nothing in this world can ever tell me otherwise. It could've been the biggest regret of my life if I didn't come back but I'm so glad that I did and I now have a family with you. I love you and our babies so much. I know I can lack sometimes and that I'm not perfect but I'll do anything and everything to make you and our babies happy, I swear to protect you all until my last breath.
/nuzzles my face into your neck and cranes my head forth and kisses you softly and pulls away as I just look at you, eyes roaming all over your face, my gaze holding so much love and adoration for you/

@‡ Jimin /smiles gratefully when you cover him up and even clean him up a little bit, feeling much better for pictures after that/
/he does manage to lift the twins closer, kissing each of them before he smiles for the camera, wanting to make sure you get plenty of good ones so he can send them to everyone too/
/leans against you when you sit back down next to him, shaking his head at your question about his arms hurting, he's tired but he wants to hold them for as long as he can/
They're so beautiful
/he whispers he agreement, looking up at you with adoration and love and he kisses your cheek/
Don't thank me silly, we did this together. You gave me this. You came back when you didn't have to, and you gave me a chance when you didn't have to too.
I just hope I can make it worth it for you, I want you to be happy Minnie, you deserve it so much
I know this probably isn't the path you thought you'd take when you came to the club, but I hope it's not one that you'll ever regret

@‡ Beomgyu Of course. And I won't let anyone else see this.
/smiles softly and walks over to you, buttons your shirt up and even fixes your hair, runs your face over with a wet tissue since you haven't had the chance to clean yourself up, something that I will do later on since you can't really take a bath yet because of your wound/
There you go. My beautiful baby~
/pecks your lips and pulls the curtains back to let in more light in the room and points my phone's camera at you/
I know they are heavy but you may lift them up a bit so that everyone will see how they look so much like you, baby.
/smiles softly and snaps a few photos of you and our babies, looks at them as I sit back down beside you/
My beautiful family.
/looks at you and smooches your cheek, sends you the photos, hearing your phone go off from the couch since I took the liberty of charging your phone earlier as well/
Does your arms hurt, baby?
/sits on the bed instead, draping an arm over your shoulders and looks over you and our babies/
They're so mesmerizing.
/kisses your temple/
Thank you so much, Gyu. For carrying them, giving birth to them, and being so strong. You're amazing~
/wraps my arms around your waist, resting my chin on your shoulder and pulls you back to lean against me/

@‡ Jimin If you button my shirt up first...
/whines a little, wanting to cover himself but he has two sleeping infants in his arms and he isn't willing to wake them, or put one of them down now that he's finally holding them both/
I want a picture, but not if I'm not decent....
/pouts because he really does want the picture, he wants a picture of the twins too so he can put it as his wallpaper and send the picture to all of their friends/
We should tell everyone soon, I'm sure they will want to come visit when they can
I miss them, I've been stuck inside for so long because I haven't felt well, I might finally get to see everyone again!

@‡ Beomgyu /smiles softly and nods/
Alrighty. Go ahead. Just thought you're already tired.
/continues to cradle Hyunseo in my arms and sits down again, booping his nose with my finger ever so gently as he sleeps/
He's so cute. Like, how can someone be so cute like this?
/smiles and watches as you make Minseo burp, feeling happy and proud that you're now starting to overcome things that you're initially scared of or worrying about/
You're doing so well, baby. They really have the best mom in the world. And of course, you can hold him, you're his mom.
/smiles and stands up, helps you position Minseo first then Hyunseo in your other arm/
How's this, baby? Too heavy? Let me know then I can carry MInseo first.
/kisses the top of your head, loving the sight in front of him, of you carrying our babies and them looking like you and sleeping peacefully in your arms, takes my phone out/
Baby, can I take a photo of you three? I won't if you don't feel comfortable yet.
/smiles softly/

@‡ Jimin I-I can do it...
/pouts a little bit, watching you carefully because he doesn't want to be helpless and useless in caring for the twins. Once Minseo is finished eating he carefully props the infant up on his shoulder like you had done with Hyunseo, patting his back and trying to coax him to burp in the same way you did though he can't quiet bounce him the same way you are/
/sighs in relief when he hears the baby burp anyway and he smiles, happy with himself for doing it right and he very gently cradles Minseo back in his arms once it seems like he's burped enough that his stomach won't be upset/
Can I hold Hyunseo for a bit?
/he asks uncertainly, wanting to spend a little bit of time with both of his sons since he hadn't gotten to interact with Hyunseo yet at all/

@‡ Beomgyu Sure. Seo being used as a second syllable in a name is common and is usually used in uni names, so that's fine.
/smiles softly and keeps cradling our firstborn in my arms, pulling the bottle away since he's already sleeping and had already finished the amount that he can drink in one feeding/
It is perfect and beautiful, baby. I love it.
/looks down at our baby that I'm carrying/
Hmm. . . Hyunseo. It means, to give thanks and wisdom.
/kisses the top of his Hyunseo's head and puts him a bit over my shoulder, patting his back gently/
Baby, Minseo's starting to pull away from your , it means he's full already and it's time to burp. Let me know once he's done and I'll make him burp.
/hears Hyunseo do so/
Aigoo~ I know. I know. It's not comfy but you'll get stomach aches if you don't burp.
/starts to walk around the room, bouncing a bit without even noticing it as I keep patting his back to make him burp more/
One more, Hyun. Just one more. There you go.
/chuckles and gently carries him back in my arms/
Feels better, doesn't it?
/kisses his forehead and starts to lull him back to sleep/

@‡ Jimin Really? Can we name this one Minseo?
/he asks hopefully, looking back down at the tiny baby in his arms, now that he can see both of the twins it's pretty obvious that the one in his arms is smaller. He remembered the doctor telling him that it was normal for twins to be different sizes, and that the smaller twin would likely catch up in the first couple of months, so he didn't worry too much about it/
Little Minseo, I think it's as perfect as he is.
/smiling softly he presses a little kiss to the baby's head, cooing softly as he watches the baby drinking hungrily still, happy to see him having such a healthy appetite/
I think it's only fair that you pick out the older twins name then

@‡ Beomgyu /lifts my head up from looking our baby and blushes even more as you pointed it our ruthlessly/
Beomgyu! Stop exposing me, baby. . .
/whines and the nurse chuckles and excuses herself after leaving notes on feeding atop the table/
. . . don't start with me. I can't physically do anything with you. . .
/groans in frustration, which melts away in a smile as you smiled at our baby/
They're cute, right? They're people that we'll have to know in the coming years but I'm looking forward to it. And may I say, we hell have some pretty good genes.
/grins softly, gently brushes my lips against the forehead of our baby that I'm carrying/
Names ending with Seo? That's cute. And I think Minseo's okay for a boy. I mean, we can go for gender-neutral names ending in Seo too.
/smiles softly/
Oh, also, the one I'm carrying is the hyung. They are five minutes apart.
/chuckles softly/

@‡ Jimin /looks at you in stunned silence for a moment before he starts giggling and he can't seem to stop/
Oh my god! You have a lactation kink?!
Why didn't you tell me?
/still giggling he leans over, slowly so he doesn't hurt himself, to kiss your cheek and whisper/
Maybe we can explore that when we get home
/he can't make any promises sooner since he's still way too sore to want to think about intimacy, but your blush is adorable/
/looking back down at the baby in his arms he smiles softly, brushing his finger across the baby's teeny tiny hand and marveling at just how little his fingers are/
I had a list of names, and I forgot it at home...
I always liked named ending in 'seo' like Junseo or Minseo, though I know Minseo is usually a girls name

@‡ Beomgyu /looks at you and this whole scene in front of him, bites my lip and sniffles, trying to disguise it that I have something in my eyes but in reality, I'm just close to crying at how beautiful you two look/
He is. They both are. They are spitting image of you, baby.
/kisses your forehead and pecks your lips and pulls away to let you feed him/
I will never be grossed out by you, I mean, if it helps, I like it that you're lactating and I won't divulge the reasons here.
/clears my throat, blush creeping up my cheeks/
But yeah, I love all of you and everything about you.
/hears our other baby fuss in his crib and goes up to him after taking the bottle with formula/
Oh, don't cry. Daddy's here. Mommy can't carry you two because you guys are so big. Daddy will feed you.
/pops off the bottle's cap and carries him in my arms and feeds him as well, looks at you/
What should we name them?
/smiles softly/

@‡ Jimin /it absolutely terrifies him when the nurse finally hands over one of the twins, and he's trembling a little when he finally holds the tiny baby in his arms, listening intently to the nurses directions to help him latch on and once he does he can't help but smile, tears filling his eyes as he watches his son ling/
He's so beautiful....
/he whispered, rubbing the tears away before he wants to be able to see him properly, he's so tiny but he's so perfect/
/looking up at you he finally shakes his head, taking in a shaky breath/
I was just scared you would think it's gross, I've never... it's not something I was expecting, so when I first noticed that I was lactating I kind of panicked.
I started covering my chest and even binding it to make sure it wasn't noticeable. It hurt, but I was scared of what you might think, I was afraid you would hate it.

@‡ Beomgyu /picking up from your movements how much you're trying to be comfortable despite being conscious of your chest, I stood up from the chair and pulled up one duffel bag atop the table by the small couch inside the room and takes out a cover/
It's not ugly. You're still the most beautiful in this room, inside-out, Gyu. Nothing can ever make you look ugly, not even feeding.
/smiles softly and watches as the nurse carried one of our babies, guiding you on how to carry them, and lets you two be until he latched onto your /
See? I told you they're big eaters.
/smiles and shows you the cover that I brought/
I bought this for you for when we are in public. Not that I'm opposed to feeding in public but I can see how conscious you are still because of this and I want you and our babies to be as comfortable as possible. Would you like to put this on, baby?

@‡ Jimin /his face is still bright red and he looks from you to the nurse and back a few times before he very self consciously undoes the front of his hospital gown to reveal just how much bigger his chest had gotten. It was easy to tell by the expression on his face that he was ashamed of it and he tried to keep himself covered as much as he could even though he knew that would be impossible with what he was trying to do/
Y-yes please, I want to try feeding them...
/the words are practically mumbled and he keeps his head down in shame, worried that you'll find him gross because of just how different his body looked now, he wanted to hide it from you as much as he could, and even the squeeze of your hand did very little to help him relax/
I'm s-sorry if it's ugly...
/he whispers, glancing down at his chest one more time and wincing a little, quickly looking away again to focus on the nurse instead/

@‡ Beomgyu I know you're not, and I can wait even for an eternity until you're ready for it.
/smiles softly and just looks at you with a loving gaze, feeling so happy and relieved that you're now able to eat, continues to eat as well until you brought up the topic of feeding/
That's good, baby. I hope it's the nurse from earlier that they send in here. She's nice and was actually horrified to hear what happened earlier because I asked if that's normal.
/clicks my tongue and glances for a quick second on your chest, not wanting to stare at it as it's not some sort of weird stuff to look at/
Also, if you feel that you don't want to feed but still want them to have your milk, you can opt to pump. I actually had stuff prepared for that. Bottle sterilizer and warmer, pump, that dry rack where I can put the bottles to dry, milk bags to keep them sterile and secure. Just let us know if you want to continue feeding, pump, or just go for formula.
/smiles softly, and glances at our babies still sleeping, sees the same nurse come in, feels relieved that she's the one now assigned to us for the duration of our stay, she then makes some small talk about how the food is making her hungry, chuckles softly and stands up to look at our babies/
"Would you like to try feeding them now?"
/glances at you and sits down beside you again as the nurse asked that, taking your hand in mine, gently squeezing yours in my hand to let you know that I'm just here to support you/

@‡ Jimin Oh god Minnie Mouse... I am /not/ ready for
/he tells you, laughing and slightly swatting your arm, he's still happy to hear you talking like that though, glad to know that you still want him even after all the changes his body had been through because of the pregnancy/
/smiling to himself he eats quickly, slowly down a little bit so he wouldn't worry you and you wouldn't keep fussing over him, even if he does find it cute. He's finally able to eat until he's full and he sighs in happiness, basking in the feeling of being full for a few glorious moments before he finally reaches out to hit the button for a nurse/
I want them to teach me how to feed the twins. I think... I think it's important that they should get that chance, and I think it's important for me too. I know I've been...
/flushing brightly he glances down at his chest, he didn't like to draw attention to it because he'd felt horribly self conscious, he's talked to the doctor several times and he knew it was normal. His body was just producing the milk that his babies needed, but it didn't make the reality any less horribly embarrassing and he'd done his absolute best to try to hide it, but the hospital gown really made it impossible to hide/

@‡ Beomgyu Alrighty. I'll prepare them now~
/smiles softly at how you look so enthusiastic to eat, just like before since you love food so much, starts to put all of the food you requested on your table, making sure nothing is spilled and giving you the utensils/
Slow down. You can't choke on food. Only on me.
/grins softly as I rub your back for a moment and after doing so, I start to eat as well/
They do take to formula quite well. A different nurse came by while you were sleeping and I fed them and had them burp as well. They are big eaters like their Mama and cry when not given more. They can only have a certain amount of milk or they'll just throw it up.
/chuckles softly/
Even at just a few hours old, they are already big foodies like you.
/smiles softly and continues to eat yet my eyes are just on you, watching you come back to your old self again as you continue to eat, reaching out from time to time to wipe your lips/
You're so ing cute. You're lucky you have stitches right now because I would've pounced on you if not.

@‡ Jimin /when you start listing out all of the food options he almost wants to cry from sheer happiness because it all sounds amazing. He's very careful when he moves so that he can sit up just a little without hurting himself, looking over the different foods you had listened/
I want the ramen for sure, and the kimchi I think. Definitely some ttoekbbeoki too. I think that's a good place to start, some rice too please.
/nodding he's smiling brightly as he sets the food out in front of him taking a bite of the noodles and closing his eyes in pure bliss. It had been so long since he could eat without feeling sick, and when he swallows the bite and his stomach doesn't immediately reject it he quickly takes another bite, and then another/
I love our sons, but they were the pickiest eaters. I hope they take to formula better than they let me handle food.
/giggling softly anyway he isn't bothered by it anymore because he can finally eat whatever he wants, and he quickly stuffs more food into his mouth, a bite of kimchi and rice, and more noodles/

@‡ Beomgyu /upon hearing you giggle, I almost wanted to cry at how much I missed hearing that, not wanting to see the state you were in earlier, swearing to myself to never let you go through that pain again/
No. It's good that you reacted that way because I would not have known. I should've insisted to check on you while you're inside the operating room but those ing nurses won't let me in.
/rolls my eyes, seething upon remembering them pushing you to your limits/
You were not reckless, baby. That was a normal reaction from someone who went through so much pain and is being forced to be okay when you're not. If not only for the stress it might cause you, I would've moved all of us out of this goddamn hospital. The medical team I have for you is ready anytime.
/kisses your forehead and holds you closer, gently squeezing you in my arms as if I'm afraid that you'll be gone/
I love you too, Gyu. There's nothing in this world that I won't do for you and our babies. I'll do everything and anything for my family.
/rubs your back gently and hears a knock on the door and grins at your words/
You didn't get lucky, I did. I'm just doing what's right and this is just the bare minimum.
/pecks your lips and takes all of the food that I ordered/
We have kimbap, tteokbeoki, jjajangmyeon, ramyeon for that good soup, rice, hmm. . . and some good kimchi.
/smiles softly and preps the food onto the rolling table and pulls up the tray on your bed so that you can eat, pushing the button for the bed to be at an upright angle without affecting your wound/
Alrighty, which one do you want first?
/smiles softly as I sit on the chair beside your bed, ready to serve you any food as I now pour some water in a large glass as I'm sure that you might also feel so thirsty/