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Well, I meant you can just come look at me. Coughs and smiles sheepishly. But sure that too pft. I— laughs with a small smile. I don't know? I just gotta make sure. Pouts and pats the spot next to me. Come here for a second?

i should, shouldn't i? i've been meaning to do some more sport activities. yes, of course with me silly. what am i gonna do? make you go alone?

It's pretty good! Fun. Tiring heh. You should come check us out sometime maybe? Classes is fine, boring but fine. Oh? Blinks and nods with a small smile. I'd love to yes. W-with you, yeah?

ooh how's track going? and your classes? haha, no.. however there is a party this weekend if you'd like to attend?

Eyes your movements before flickering my gaze away with a hint of a smile. I was merely teasing you. Chuckles and hums as I lean back on my elbows to peek up at you. Well, classes... track... yeah— what about you? Anymore parties without me?

i -- haha well no i didn't mean like that.. ah, thank you you look wonderful as well, as usual
pushes my glasses up a little, leaning back into my chair
what have you been up to?

Looks up at you and pursed my lips out a bit.
Wow settled. So are you like baby sitting me now? Quirks a brow and clears my throat. You look nice....

you're okay i'll take a break for a moment until you're settled, okay?
spins around in my chair to face you again, my expression soft but amused

Nice stuff. Things I actually enjoy myself. If I'm talking too much you can tell me to shut up. Mumbles sheepishly as I pick a random book,,noting it's a murder mystery and I'm opening it up to read the prologue slowly.

glances back to watch when you try to check out the things in my room, chuckling softly to myself
uhm.. fantasy, crime, adventure, horror type stuff

Uhhhh books might be my best bet? Chuckles and eyes you before casting my glance away to check out the games and books curiously. Trying not to stare at you although, it is quite difficult. What do you usually enjoy reading..?

watches you with amused eyes, humming gently as i close and lock the door again before moving across to settle in at my desk
i have like.. books, gaming systems, if you wanna use any of those?

Smiles brightly, a flush taking over my cheeks at your mere appearance. I rushed that huh? Chuckles sheepishly as I step on in and glance around. First time being here. Mumbles and plop down onto your bed. Hi.

sends my reply through only seconds before i hear the knock on my door, chuckling softly as i push back from my desk to come over and open the door for you
hey belle, come on in

Without getting a reply, I still trek over to your dorm room and knock on your door, rocking back on my heels as I wait for you to answer. Junnie? It's me, belle.

@choi beomgyu Noting beomgyu's apparent displeasure wasn't so far off. It was easy to see the distaste in the male's features and she couldn't help but release a deep breath. "That's... it's not like I want to bring the mood down and all that too, so it's quite alright. Maybe this all happens for a reason, yknow?" Wiping her smeared mascara and peeking down at her black ink stained fingers she grimaced a little, surely she must look like a black rimmed eye pander and with her fair skin, it would definitely pop out more often than others. Her head merely shakes slowly and she felt the way her shoulders rose and slumps back down before pursing her brims out and she's squeezing the mattress under her hold as her lithe frame leans into the nestling, safety hold that's her best friend. She always had beomgyu to thank for things such as this.

"You're too sweet, too kind and far too thoughtful to me. I don't think I've done anything to genuinely deserve this type of friend at the end of the day — and his love and protection but thank you," her lips pulled into a wry smile, even with her red rimmed orbs and her nose at the tip bright in color and her nostrils feel congested, no doubt. She couldn't help but wrap her arms around the male and squish him into a tight hug. "I really appreciate your existence silly boy, and what do you want to show me?" Her eyes sparkled in excitement and sadness slowly washed away, she's even able to breathe better again and talk properly, no longer stuttering and being vulnerable as she perks up and peek down at his hands and back up. "Show me!"

after letting out his most miserable war cry and taking a breather, AND earning a dirty stare from his roommate [heyyy who wants to be roomies!]. he decided to sit down at his desk and type on his laptop notepad.

"Dear Diary,
It's October 23, 2024. I am well into the school year now and I am enjoying school work as it is very mentally stimulating. However, why are Haneul University Women so FREE? so AGGRAVATING? It's okay Taerae, you don't hate women, you're just scared of them, but WHY ARE THEY GOING FOR ME?
Let me tell you about my first incident..
I was grabbing a snack at the Student Center the other day, when suddenly a GIRL started talking to me from behind? WHY ARE YOU TALKING TO ME!!!! I ran away, but I wonder.. if I looked like a pathetic loser to everyone else at the student center. I don't know if my reputation can recover from that one.
Then! Some random girl who I've never seen before in my whole entire 18 years of living, COMMENTED ON MY INSTAGRAM POST? WHY ARE YOU STALKING RANDOM PEOPLE, YOU WEIRDO! I deleted her comment and blocked her ASAP. Oh yeah, student center girl also liked my post, also blocked.
Then the final straw, was today.
As an enjoyer of Roku-Sama, I of course will only use the most insightful, inventive, intelligent words to describe the man, the myth, the legend. In the Anime4Lifers gang, that would be the word Sugoi. It is such a powerful Japanese word that every anime fan learns in their anime journey and can be used to describe the idol of many anime fans. SO WHY DID THIS @P_HANNI PERSON ON TWITTER TWEET SOMETHING THAT SEEMED TO MAKE FUN OF WHO I FUNDAMENTALLY AM AS A PERSON. Why did she say SUGOI like that as if it was a JOKE. But deeper than that.. I think I'm scared of getting being made fun of and getting a strange rep in school, so that's why I blocked her right away, also because of course, it had to be another GIRL. I wonder if she's from Haneul too?
The world is harsh on anime fans.
BUT THESE WOMEN!
THESE UNIVERSITY WOMEN!!!!!!
ARE DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!!

Maybe, I will be a 30 year old wizard just like that one anime that's going viral on Twitter right now.
At least.. I'll have magic powers!

Taerae, 2024"

satisfied with his entry today, taerae closed his laptop and went to sleep with an empty mind and an empty heart, full of peace.

as usual*** [] teehee

scrolling through X per usual, taerae was looking at the fan updates on the new One Piece episode. sasuga, luffy. a proud fatherly smile decorating taerae's face. sending a few tweets of banter back and forth between his Anime4Lifers, he was laughing and enjoying his evening laying in bed scrolling. aw man, they are so funny. i wish they went to haneul. he wanted to find a tweet that his friend tweeted awhile back to make fun of him and he remembered there being sugoi in the tweet, so he types sugoi into the search bar, testing his luck. scrolling, scrolling, he laughed at the tweets of other people in the anime community talking about sugoi scenes, until he reached a certain tweet. he started at the tweet for awhile. he did that today.. is this person talking about him? @p_hanni? from the look of it, she's a girl too. in shock, he dropped his phone on the bed and let out a battle cry of despair. KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

@kim minjeong regret nearly seeped into him for asking his inquiry when he caught all the different emotions flashing across her face, but he patted her hands supportively, hoping his nonverbal message would reach her. his brows knitted together in shock and soon, anger as she told about her experiences from earlier in the day. balling his fingers into a fist, he had to bite his tongue from firing phrases that spoke his mind in regards to the individuals she’d encountered. especially the ex; he knew the history minjeong had with him and the effect he had, still has, on her. his expression and the flames within him softened hearing the second half of her spiel. she didn’t have to explain further about her earlier silence. he understood the full picture now, and his heart crooned in empathy. “i’m sorry, minj. that sounds like a lot to deal with, and all on the same day too… and things just piling up…”

with a small exhale, beomgyu continued in a gentle tone, also a little chastising because he couldn’t help it, “and stop apologizing already, you’ve got nothing to say sorry for.” showing her a brief smile, he hooked an arm around her shoulder after and squeezed gently. an idea suddenly popped into his head, and it sounded so perfect the longer it sat there with them brushed up against each other. “hey… how about i show you something to get your mind off of all this?”

@choi beomgyu Taking a deep breath at the question directed at winter, a myriad of turmoil, anguish and angst settling within the young girl really took a turn on her and she felt dizzy,,intoxicated even by all the emotional battering that has been done to her heart, mind, body and soul. She couldn't get away from that prospect, no doubt and she's quick to break her silence, a deep sigh elongating from her brims as her orbs find beomgyu's and a softness hidden in his gaze is enough to make the young woman tumble out her words like a river dam being broken.

"Maybe... seeing a post from that ex... added to the overwhelming pressure everyone's putting on me. I think— sometimes they forget miss queen b winter is merely human too.... I got into an altercation earlier too, because there was this dumb bullying a sweet kid and he said some nasty my way too and u don't give a about that— I don't. People hate me too, it's valid. That's their business but with all the pressure weighing on me, assignments that I'm struggling a bit with, not because of knowledge but time wise.... work demands, late nights, all nighters... did you know when you lack sleep your moods get all ed?" Winter couldn't help but scoff a laugh at that, shaking her head as her fingers wiggle in beom's hold and her own digits slide over the back of his hand in slow, soothing touches. "You comfort me... you didn't once annoy me or go crazy with the texts or calls, I just knew if I went back on my phone I'd do something stupid like —" she doesn't say it but her mind said it and she's sure her best friend knew too 'reach out for her ex.'

"I'm so sorry beommie." She mumbles with a frown marring her lips, before wiggling closer and curling up against the handsome male's side with a soft sigh. "I'm a wreck... a mess...."

@kim minjeong feeling how she relaxed the longer she was in his arms quelled beomgyu’s emotions, and he exhaled softly. he could remain like this for however long minjeong needed still, to be embraced and reminded, through touches and hushed whispers and the like, that he was here. whatever tides chasing after her with destruction in their wake wouldn’t have a chance to strike anymore. upon feeling her release him, he mirrored the action, uncertainty still lingering on him until he felt her gentle tugs.

he allowed himself to be led further into the apartment with no qualms. after sinking into the mattress next to her, he kept nodding encouragingly and tried keeping his expressions in check while he listened to her, lest concern towards him built up again. his lower lip jutted out and he didn’t hesitate to hold her fingers in between after. “was there anything that tipped you over the edge? if you wanna share, it’s also okay if not.” a small chuckle left his mouth at her question and from how she avoided his eyes. he squeezed her hands in a comforting manner as he nodded. his voice was soft and low, and slightly unsteady as he poured out some of what he’d been holding in all this time. “i’m okay, i was just really worried i didn’t hear anything from you… sorry i went a little crazy with my texts and calls…”

taerae was now sweating bullets. a school groupchat? are they insane? the amount of GIRL names he saw on that list made him panic just a little. i have to quickly leave this group before any of them speak to me. he leaves the groupchat.

a tough day for student kim taerae indeed, he had to block yet another girl who not only liked his post, but also commented. he had to erase all traces. why was his post suddenly gaining traction among haneul students? was he popping on discover pages? he shouldn't be, he doesn't use hashtags. @kmsung and @snghnprk were the two newest people to like his posts. just who are these people! well, but that's okay. maybe there's just guys who like one piece! awesome!

after relishing in the new episode of One Piece, taerae could not wait to post about it on his instagram for his online anime clique. he posted it and expectantly waited for his clique to reply, when all of a sudden he sees that the girl from earlier on in the day at the student center liked his post. his jaw dropped, phone slipping out his hand. HOW DID SHE FIND ME! he screamed in his room, earning a weird stare from his roommate. quickly, he went to block the account out of fear.

@choi beomgyu it was as if a light shone through her entire darkness, the clouded rain that poured over and over atop her. her entire being felt as if it was light and could very well just be whisked away. it was soothing, calming and beyond breathtaking to what beomgyu can provide. whether it was stress, whether it's due to being hurt over and over by people just simply wanting to use her, whether it's physically being beaten down due to pushing herself. things have awfully stressed minjeong out in the past. she tends to bottle it all up and when it comes out spilling out, boy does it tumble out. she cannot help but look at him - feeling small, pathetic almost as her eyes flicker down to their shoes meeting up on the floor.

"i-" she tried to talk but alas, no other words can even escape her brims, her heart shattered at the emotions raw as day on the male's pretty features. she always would call the male beautiful as to - but she genuinely meant it. beomgyu had a heart of gold and inside-out she knew he was solely her protector, her best friend, her pillar. her hands shook a little as they gripped onto the back of his shirt and she slowly lets go, but not without tugging on his hand and bringing him over to her bed. settling down on the edge and guiding the taller male to sit next to her as a deep, shaky breath elongates through parted lips. her eyes are red-brimmed, swollen and she's trying to clear the sinus headache incoming, with a stuffy nose, red-tipped no doubt. "I'm just a mess... everything came crashing down all at once," her voice is soft, croaky from not using her voice all evening and crying constantly. her eyes shakily meet beomgyu's gaze and her heart ached as she glances down once more. "a-are you okay?"

@kim minjeong his brain panicked trying to follow the quick succession of events after the door was shut, leading him to release a small gasp as minjeong bridged the distance between them. he was still caught up in what she'd said, of it being one of those days. a statement that, despite its simplicity, answered all of his uncertainties of the night. ah, so that was why he couldn't get in touch of her, why she appeared before him as she did. with this knowledge and her plea to hold her, now beomgyu could approach her without hesitation.

his chin rested above the crown of her head while he engulfed her in his arms, and quite literally given how tiny she was. naturally shifting their positions into a more comfortable one as his palms brushed through her hair, and then her backside, gentle yet affirming. his shushes echoed against the quiet that surrounded them after the door was shut, countering every shaky breath that left her lips. a searing pain struck his heart again feeling her twist at his shirt and then knead at the same area with lingering remorse. he wanted to tell her how silly she was trying to take over his job; even though his being was flooded with worry, he could ignore it for now. what he couldn't ignore was her and the emotions still trying to render her into fragments. he squeezed her tighter as he took to murmuring into her blonde locks, "shh, minj, you have nothing to apologize for... i'm here. i got you."

@choi beomgyu Spotting some students shuffling around and about, ever keen eyes flickering over to the figures by the door, huddled together, well as close as can be. Beomgyu didn't wish to push the smaller female which makes her felt more at ease, but in that moment — she needed more. She needed a hug from the other as desperately as she craved for some soft serve cups. "Hug me.... it's one of those d-days," she hiccups and with what last resilient strength left in her, minjeong closed the door behind the young male's back and she's back to gripping onto the boy's shirt as if her life depended on it.

Which, it does seem plausible to say the least. Her lifeline.... that's what beomgyu has been since they've been growing up as kids, her head nestle into the confines of his chest as her ear tuned in to the sporadic beats of his heart. Her breathing going ragged as she tries her best to intake his scent. The sweetness of his natural scent and cologne soothe her sporadic senses and eased her ongoing, overthinking mind. Her fingers gripped onto the back of his shirt as she felt the way his body tensed and she felt guilty beyond words. Causing her to rub at his back in slow, soothing circles. As if needing to comfort him in the process as well. "I'm so sorry... beommie....s-sorry.... it's just so much.... pressure..."

@kim minjeong words left beomgyu the minute the door swung open and revealed the person he was hoping to find on the other side. at first relief washed over him like calm tides, but the waves him, crashing against the red shell tucked inside his chest with no signs of stopping. his heart drowned underneath the violent currents, crying out soundlessly as his eyes assessed minjeong’s state. they moved from her distressed features to the outfit she adorned most days when the field was filled to the brim with bustling students, and back to her face again upon hearing his name.

stepping forward, his arms made all the motions to wrap around her trembling figure and shield her from any curious gazes in the hallway. to protect her, something he carried expertise in. although, his guarding usually occurred under rougher circumstances and with flirts in varsity jackets and breath reeking of booze to boot. he changed his mind before his hands could graze against her skin, having his fingers hover mere inches from her shoulders. a small fear had filled him on whether an immediate embrace would break her fragile condition even more. he needed to hear from her what she needed from him above all else. his voice nearly broke as he uttered, “minj… minjeong, what’s wrong?”

@choi beomgyu Usually, winter would be buzzing around socially and having her bright and knowing presence known all over social media and around campus. Heck, she was cheer captain for a reason! Yet, here she is burrowed in the slumps as she felt that wave of panic and hysteria rising within her once again. It isn't a norm for the young girl to feel this way, heck, she doesn't even ward off any mental health issues. It's common and very normal and she loves to help others understand it, she's a psychology major after all. But what ticks her off is when she has to do something important it catches her off guard, fumbling around and spazzing out of her mind as she tried to find her inhaler for some ease. She doesn't usually need it, but tonight was different. Numerous times she glances over and spotted her phone lighting up with beomgyu's name and she couldn't help but clutch it within a shaky,, sweaty hand, her voice coming out garbled and breathy as she called his name. "Beoms...." the shrill ring within her dorm room makes her skittish and she jumps up, a little yelp sounding as her red rimmed orbs brim over with more tears threatening to spill down her cheeks.

Walking over towards the door, her shaky hand moves over to the door knob, she should ask who is it. Who is she going to face — she doesn't want to appear as a mess in front of anyone, anyone but 'him.' Beomgyu knows her by now, inside and out— when stressed and running out of time for deadlines, pressed against time and limits, she gets into a panicked state like this. Opening the door, she stood there, shaking, cheer clothes still on and mascara running as her lips wobble and she whimpers out that one name that soothes her down, "b-beomgyu.."