— ideas

https://youtube.com/watch?v=jHTXC_FdVis

❝ Your dreams burn me out
I'm dying to survive

❝ It reminds me about a sad ending love story. Where at first, they were so mesmerised almost spell-bound of that magical love. It’s like finding and reaching for a beautiful butterfly. It’s a dreamy kind of love story that is almost too perfect.
But like butterflies having short lives, their love story didn’t last long too. Both seems to aim for a fairy tale (butterfly) like story, that their hearts grew tired.
Too focused for that butterfly, they forget about themselves. They finally wake up to reality and let go of the “butterfly” as it “fly high”. And after waking up from that “sleep”, they can no longer remember “that dream”. They forget each other in the end. (quoted from a comment about the mv on yt!)

i looked at him and could only see all the love and time i had given and all the hurt i had received.

brian promised to love me forever. then he told me about a star trek episode where they scientifically proved the possibility that forever might actually last only a few days.

https://youtu.be/7mT5x8kt3Gs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=areUGfOHkMA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ecLVSWGcCM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0HTIG3mFnDI

cnco - la ley vibey plot

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=myaN5jTh79o

"I learned that people leave, Even if they wanted to stay, Even if they promised a million times they wouldn't go away."

- Sensitive to spirits (?)
- Sensitive to emotions (?)

The solace Taemin found in graveyards is sometimes attributed to him being “sensitive” to spirits. If asked about his belief on the existence of ghosts, he would deny them. However, he would admit to feeling something otherworldly but calming whenever he sits against a gravestone and allows himself to listen to the winds or cicadas.

Due to Taemin’s awareness of people’s emotions, he unwittingly adjusts his behaviour around them. This could be another factor that cemented his trauma. Every time he spoke up about his discomfort, his parents would either display worry or annoyance. If it’s the latter, which was rather often, Taemin would unconsciously fall silent on his well-being. This led to wounds going unattended and worsening.

- Graveyards
- Religious trauma (???)
- Talking to the dead

Taemin always found solace in the dead. He felt those who aren’t present but are always around understood him more than those who are present but aren’t always around. He didn’t need to express what’s socially expected of a particular emotion for the dead to understand his thoughts and feelings.

Religious trauma (still deciding) was formed due to experiences revolving his parents’ religion. Further unease caused by religion made Taemin stray further from the idea of an omnipotent being. He believed in the wandering essences of human conscious, but not in the almighty entity that seemed to control the fate of homosapiens

• May discard the idea of having a parental figure. He became a grave keeper on his own accord

Leaving this here for reference to myself. Will refine it sometime later

- Con insensitivity to pain (CIP)
- Alexithymia

An inability to feel pain but knowing something is wrong. However having difficulty expressing emotions made voicing the problem even harder. This led to negligence on his well-being

- C-PTSD
- Dissociative Disorder (?)

Parents never made him feel valued which caused trauma. Possible dissociation to escape high-stress situations since his needs were never met. Especially when he knows something is wrong (possible injuries which he cannot feel pain for but is aware it exists) but can do nothing of the situation

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PNrOsGBnWFw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BiQIc7fG9pA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vJF9kJxQpBY

https://youtube.com/watch?v=bI6jM9f4FKM

when he says he loves me, i believe him :(

maybe someday TT

when is this gonna be us

ilysm shiah

suzy just wants to makeout to angst for five minutes and i respect it

https://youtube.com/watch?v=CbNmRJCkwQs
just...EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS OKAY

https://youtube.com/watch?v=1hZa60t8wSE&;feature=shares
❝ you say you will love me more tomorrow than you do today / but i can only love you more today than i will tomorrow ❞

❝ the pinky will be our promise, the ring finger our witness. ❞

dande high school graduates: https://padlet.com/rainbowbubbles92/momtiknvsvhisg91
non-dande high school graduates: https://padlet.com/rainbowbubbles92/1bzinrouzng7vgom

Back here in town
You ring my line from time to time
I'm not hard to reach
Don't be so hard on me

And we spend the day
I spend the night, you by my side
Can't close my eyes
Haven't held you in a while

I've got a lot to miss
Like your pretty lips, in my car
Take you where the city's dim, hold my heart
And we're not far apart
And I've got a lot to give
But what's the point in this if we part?
Go wherever it is, if you change your mind
I'm not hard to find

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eud0Igto8Wk

❝ (...) "He finally has a way out but how will I manage without him?" I bet you thought of that and felt lost. *But now that you are not here...I feel just as lost.* (...) Mudeok, I miss you. ❞
— Jang Wook, Alchemy of Souls

Sometimes, sometimes we forget to call just to say
I'm thinking 'bout you, forgot to ask 'bout your day
Down in the weeds, so the trees go unnoticed
Look up and now it's a forest
Sometimes life sees away

So when's the last time you gave a just out aloud?
Last time you gave it, even when you didn’t have enough
When’s the last time you hurt somebody, when they thought they couldn’t tell nobody?
When’s the last time, when’s the last time you loved just because?
Ooh, you loved just bеcause, just because?

Somеtimes, sometimes we mix up what we want and need
Sometimes it's easy to forget about the little things
Missin’ the point in the much bigger picture
It's all in the details, go figure
Sometimes we just don't see

So when's the last time you gave a just out aloud?
Last time you gave it, even when you didn’t have enough
When’s the last time you hurt somebody, when they thought they couldn’t tell nobody?
So when’s the last time, when’s the last time you loved
Just because?
Ooh, you loved just because, just because?

https://youtu.be/0WDvodLDqmQ

Basic Character Questions
First name?
Surname?
Middle names?
Nicknames?
Date of birth?
Age?
Physical / Appearance
Height?
Weight?
Build?
Hair colour?
Hair style?
Eye colour?
Eye Shape?
Glasses or contact lenses?
Distinguishing facial features?
Which facial feature is most prominent?
Which bodily feature is most prominent?
Other distinguishing features?
Skin?
Hands?
Make up?
Scars?
Birthmarks?
Tattoos?
Physical handicaps?
Type of clothes?
How do they wear their clothes?
What are their feet like? (type of shoes, state of shoes, socks, feet, pristine, dirty, worn, etc)
Race / Ethnicity?
Mannerisms?
Are they in good health?
Do they have any disabilities?
Personality
What words or phrases do they overuse?
Do they have a catchphrase?
Are they more optimistic or pessimistic?
Are they introverted or extroverted?
Do they ever put on airs?
What bad habits do they have?
What makes them laugh out loud?
How do they display affection?
Mental handicaps?
How do they want to be seen by others?
How do they see themselves?
How are they seen by others?
Strongest character trait?
Weakest character trait?
How competitive are they?
Do they make snap judgements or take time to consider?
How do they react to praise?
How do they react to criticism?
What is their greatest fear?
What are their biggest secrets?
What is their philosophy of life?
When was the last time they cried?
What haunts them?
What are their political views?
What will they stand up for?
Who do they quote?
Are they indoorsy or outdoorsy?
What is their sinful little habit?
What sense do they most rely on?
How do they treat people better than them?
How do they treat people worse than them?
What quality do they most value in a friend?
What do they consider an overrated virtue?
If they could change one thing about themselves, what would it be?
What is their obsession?
What are their pet peeves?
What are their idiosyncrasies?
Friends and Family
Is their family big or small? Who does it consist of?
What is their perception of family?
Do they have siblings? Older or younger?
Describe their best friend.
Ideal best friend?
Describe their other friends.
Describe their acquaintances.
Do they have any pets?
Who are their natural allies?
Who are their surprising allies?
Past and Future
What was your character like as a baby? As a child?
Did they grow up rich or poor?
Did they grow up nurtured or neglected?
What is the most offensive thing they ever said?
What is their greatest achievement?
What was their first kiss like?
What is the worst thing they did to someone they loved?
What are their ambitions?
What advice would they give their younger self?
What smells remind them of their childhood?
What was their childhood ambition?
What is their best childhood memory?
What is their worst childhood memory?
Did they have an imaginary childhood friend?
When was the last time they were crushed with disappointment?
What past act are they most ashamed of?
What past act are they most proud of?
Has anyone ever saved their life?
Strongest childhood memory?
Love
Do they believe in love at first sight?
Are they in a relationship?
How do they behave in a relationship?
When did you character last have ?
What sort of do they have?
Has your character ever been in love?
Have they ever had their heart broken?
Conflict
How do they respond to a threat?
Are they most likely to fight with their fists or their tongue?
What is your character’s kryptonite?
If your character could only save one thing from their burning house, what would it be?
How do they perceive strangers?
What do they love to hate?
What are their phobias?
What is their choice of weapon?
What living person do they most despise?
Have they ever been bullied or teased?
Where do they go when they’re angry?
Who are their enemies and why?
Work, Education and Hobbies
What is their current job?
What do they think about their current job?
What are some of their past jobs?
What are their hobbies?
Educational background?
Intelligence level?
Do they have any specialist training?
Do they have a natural talent for something?
Do they play a sport? Are they any good?
What is their socioeconomic status?
Favourites
What is their favourite animal?
Which animal to they dislike the most?
What place would they most like to visit?
What is the most beautiful thing they’ve ever seen?
What is their favourite song?
Music, art, reading preferred?
What is their favourite colour?
What is their password?
Favourite food:
What is their favourite work of art?
Who is their favourite artist?
What is their favourite day of the week?
Possessions
What is in their fridge:
What is on their bedside table?
What is in their car?
What is in their bin?
What is in their purse or wallet?
What is in their pockets?
What is their most treasured possession?
Spirituality
Who or what is your character’s guardian angel?
Do they believe in the afterlife?
What are their religious views?
What do they think heaven is?
What do they think hell is?
Are they superstitious?
What would they like to be reincarnated as?
How would they like to die?
What is your character’s spirit animal?
What is their zodiac sign?
Values
What do they think is the worst thing that can be done to a person?
What is their view of ‘freedom’?
When did they last lie?
What’s their view of lying?
When did they last make a promise?
Did they keep or break their last promise?
Daily life
What are their eating habits?
Do they have any allergies?
Describe their home.
Are they minimalist or a clutter hoarder?
What do they do first thing on a weekday morning?
What do they do on a Sunday afternoon?
What do they do on a Friday night?
What is the soft drink of choice?
What is their alcoholic drink of choice?
Miscellaneous
What is their character archetype?
Who is their hero?
What or who would your character dress up as for Halloween?
Are they comfortable with technology?
If they could save one person, who would it be?
If they could call one person for help, who would it be?
What is their favourite proverb?
What is their greatest extravagance?
What is their greatest regret?
What is their perception of redemption?
What would they do if they won the lottery?
What is their favourite fairytale?
What fairytale do they hate?
Do they believe in happy endings?
What is their idea of perfect happiness?
What would they ask a fortune teller?
If your character could travel through time, where would they go?
What sport do they excel at?
What sport do they at?
If they could have a superpower, what would they choose?