⑨ confessionals

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I think we all found a new kind of confidence that we hadn’t yet discovered before.

Whether it was feeling not good enough, unsure about our passions as singers/dancers/rappers- we left differently. I believe not only that but we planted our seed here , thid is where the growth truly begins.

For me personally, i learned how to be apart of something again. I’m grateful for these girls who helped lift my spirits and i can only hope i’ve done the same.

I’m sad it’s over, not gonna lie. I love evaluations and getting better and better but our time here has come to a close but this will not be the last you see us. Hopefully the next time you see us we will be debuted idols and taking the world by the throat with our charm and charisma

See you all real soon, peaceeeeee

@✵ shim jaeyun⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ @✵ myoui mina⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ @✵ lee heeseung⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ @✵ kim jiwon⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ @✵ kim hongjoong⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ @✵ jeong yunho⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ @✵ huh yunjin⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ @✵ choi yewon⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ @✵ ahn yujin⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ ' now that show is finished, looking back on your journey from the start until now, what do you think you accomplished the most while filming 9lives?'

() just a lil something for everyone to answer if you want

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“ how do you feel about this week’s performance such as overall progress for the girls?”

did you watch it? we did exactly what i said we’d do. our stage awareness and cohesiveness as a group really shined this week, i think. No, not even think, i KNOW it did.

“ if the girls were to win this whole thing and debut first, what would you do for celebration? “

Take everyone out for drinks and food obviously. there is no other to celebrate something so monumental other than with good food and amazing drinks.

“ do you find it stressful going through this process a second time after fighting for a debut spot before and winning then once again fighting for who gets to debut first?”

Stressful? hmm, i dont know if thats the correct term i’d use. I think it’s nerve wracking more than anything. and sometimes it can get … to be a lot when you go online and see that some people dont want to see you debut for a second time and call me washed up. it’s not stressful at all to me because i know what I’m capable of and i know that i was born to perform. simple, really.

‘Who do you think is the weak link in the group?’

“I don’t think anyone is. We all have our strengths in different categories which makes us great as a team, but I would say I’m the weakest one in this mission.” Jiwon said softly, rubbing her arm sheepishly, matching with a small smile. “I just hope I won’t hinder the progress everyone has made so far in this show.”

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' do you think you're the weakest among your group members?'

I wouldn't say that. I don't think any of us are the weakest, I think we all have different things we offer to the group and we are constantly improving our skills. I think weak is when you don't show any progress and we definitely have.

' the judges seem to say something is off with the girls in general as a group, would you agree?'

You throw a bunch of random girls who have never interacted in a group and tell me what you get?
There's hundreds of trainees at DSF waiting for their chance and we just got lucky enough, I being privileged enough to get this opportunity twice. There are... chemistry issues I agree , but I believe that will come soon enough and before the show ends.

' last question, do you think if the girls team were to debut tomrrow would you guys be ready? '
We have been training for some time now, some of us have been training for years. We could debut today and I think we'd tear the house down.

ahhhhhhh

she shakes her head in front of the camera, looking dejected but not completely upset. just disappointed.
I feel like all the girls are improving so well. I am proud of them, but as someone who has been here long I feel like I need to be more present and guideful. it's a whole group effort I know, I just feel like I didn't do my part.. well enough.

It's nearing the end and our debut is one the line, we need to start bringing everything in which we got.

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unlike her lost confesseional she doesn't come into frame upset, she looks almost relieved but not quite. she gives a finger heart towards the camera
hello!
I do feel a little better this week than the last. I improved just like I said I would, I think I needed to get my head in a good place and away from the nerves. I wouldn't say I'm satisfied; the judges gave some good advice at there that there's always room for improvement and that implies even if you did well, until you give it your everything it"ll never be enough.

As a group, the judges said we lacked a lot and I understand because we haven't spent too much time together personally. As the senior trainee here I kind of feel obligated to make sure we are where we need to be performance level. I will do better in the future and so will the rest of DSF girl trainees, we want this debut so bad. So keep supporting us.

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after her performance Lisa is shown the confessional room. she waves towards the camera unable to smile brightly like usual. she was overcome with what felt like failure. a sob gets stuck on the back of as she hangs her head in momentary shame . she niffs, cradling her finger through her hair as she wipes her tears

that was not my best performance. I feel like I could and should have done better. this was supposed to be my redemption arc, to show how worthy I was to be here like anyone else. I should have practice more.

I have the most experience and to give a performance like that.... unacceptable. I will do better from here on out and give it everything I have because that's what performers at DSF do.

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