⑨ backstage

@✵ myoui mina⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ @✵ kim jiwon⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ @✵ choi yewon⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ @◈ lalisa manoban Lɪsᴀ⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ //tries not to let myself cry as well, heart feeling full of warmth as I look at your faces who had been together with me, sniffles a bit//
Oh come ooooon~ let's not start crying now... all of us might end up becoming a crying mess too, unnie
//chuckles softly, a big grin on my face after as I nod//
But yes, thank you for everything. For covered a lot of my mistakes throughout these stages. I won't let any of you down today. We've prepared a lot so yeah, let's kick some , as Lisa unnie said, and wow them. The CEO is here too... Let's show her that we are all ready to take over the world hehe

@✵ myoui mina⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ @✵ kim jiwon⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ @✵ huh yunjin⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ @✵ choi yewon⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ @✵ ahn yujin⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ .
girls! Come, come
/motions for all the girls to come follow her into a quieter part of the backstage area away from glitz and glam being shoved in their faces
this is it! we have worked our y, talented asses off for this very moment. no matter what happens tonight we go out there and give our all. even if we fall, stumble or miss a note , remember that five other girls are going to be there to help pick you back up. We’re in this together now. I dont usually get sappy like this-
/her voice cracks mid sentence , all the emotions she had been holding in until now coming out. the dam broken and here come the annoying tears. better now than when in makeup
but i’m so grateful to have been given another opportunity and to be in this with you all. no matter how much hate we received we all stayed strong together and uplifted each other. so lets go out there and kick some and show them why we are the future of the next generation

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@◈ lalisa manoban Lɪsᴀ⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ *feeling slightly uplifted, i even manage a little smile*
Can we eat? I like eating...
Wherever you want to - take me to your favourite place.

@✵ myoui mina⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ of course, whatever you need!
/nods her head , she unwraps herself from her trainee friend and grabs both of their bags from the makeup station
okay , bet. where we going, pretty? eat our feelings? moping by the water? napping away the disappointment?

//it could be seen from her face that she was extremely nervous, especially after condition this morning was not a very good one. Sighing quietly to herself as she takes a seat in order to calm herself down//

/she took a deep breath, watching through the screen before she looked around to see the other girls. they practiced well, and she trusted all of them, and knew just how amazing they are.
We can do it, we can do it
We've come this far
/she muttered to herself, patting her chest as she closed her eyes, as if chanting a mantra.

@◈ lalisa manoban Lɪsᴀ⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ *wipes the welling tears from my eyes with the ball of my hand, putting the other on top of yours that wrap around my, shuddering a little laugh*
Don't say that. He had a point. It's about debut.
*my fingers lightly squeeze onto your wrist, in a subconscious attempt to soothe and ground myself*
I have to be as good as you. Then it'll be okay.
*exhales somewhat frustrated, pulling out the in-ears*
Let's... can we get out of here... somewhere...

@✵ myoui mina⁻ᵗʳᵃᶦⁿᵉᵉ /comes up from beside you, long limbs arpping around your smaller frame in a big hug
you tried your best and that's all you can do. it's not the end of the world, all we can do is improve.
/her voice drops into a hushed whisper so only you could hear
Jungkook sunbaenims was a about it anyways. it'll be okay

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*plucks the hairband out of my hair, finally releasing the tight ponytail and ruffling the strands*
I'm...
*shakes my head quickly, holding my hair back*
You did great. Really great job, and they saw it. You have your work set for you, ladies.

are you kidding me.???
unable to turn her head to fully scold the other, she settles for an intense side eye instead
mina , babess, they were in love with you!! you should be proud of yourself. plus you picked this song , i trust you and everyone else here to do their part. we’re a team now

*already done with make up, i sit in a chair, having my hair pulled off my scalp into a tight ponytail - a process I endure in silence as per usual*
I really hope you're right, Lali... I'm so nervous again, after that meh show I did last week...

sitting in a chair while having two people paint makeup on her face

sooooooo , how are we all feeling? second performance, personally I think we’re gonna kill it

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Oh thank you!
It's a great song, I'm not sure I did it justice... But the boots are really cute, yes!

looks up when she's spoken to, tucking a lock of hair behind her ear as she approaches the other women.
oh, thank you so much! i liked your performance a lot too, and your boots are so cute!

*feels something surge, like the ball of nerves got pushed up, tears watering my eyes unexpectedly - the simple supportive words being something I needed to hear*
Thank you.
*quickly I look towards the new voice, recognizing the face that accompanied it too*
Hey! You were just out there, weren't you? You did great, good job hitting those notes

walks backstage and pauses when she hears the conversation, running a hand through her red hair and stepping a bit closer.
hey guys.

well….
if it makes you feel any better, dancer to dancer, I don’t think it’s ever a mistake to follow your dreams. You may go out on stage and absolutely crush it or you may fail- but that’s not the important part
/she shuffles closer , reaching a hand out to pat the girl in comfort
the important part is what you feel while being on stage. if there’s no other feeling like it then you know what your answer is. you don’t gotta know immediately and if there’s people pressuring you, then em

*listens quietly, knowing well about the little group that had debuted right when I moved to South Korea, and also knowing it didn't live long; shakes my head*
But there are many other idols who also re-debuted... You're right though, people like to judge.
*sighs, swiveling on the spot to bring both legs together and clutch them to my chest, leaning my arms on the bent knees and looking at the tall blonde with a sort of sad smile*
So much for playing it cool, huh? It's been a while since I was on stage like this. And last time I was wearing a ballet tutu. I guess I have to prove to myself and to everyone that this wasn't a mistake.
*motions along the area with a hand at the "this" part*

I had already debuted
/ she says matter of factly, chest puffed up in pride which soon deflates with her next sentence
which means some people will think i'm washed up goods. already been used, this is my chance to show people that I am here to stay this time around.
/ she looks the woman up and down , blinking once and then twice
what are you're reasons. sorry to be blunt, but you look constipated with nerves. its okay to let it show, right? out with it then.

*smiles in return, leaning forwards against my leg again, aiming to smoosh the ball of nerves in my stomach and not let it show*
Nerves are not always about eliminations though. If it was just eliminations it'd be easy - you , you get kicked out. No, we have something to prove.
*straightens up slowly, with an inhale*
What are your reasons then?

she stops in her tracks at the sound of another voice. maybe she had not been paying enough attention, when did she get there. mina was her name if she remembers correctly. she had done all her research on each trainee doing the show.
she offers a small smile , shaking her hands as if to shake the nerves out
Its just stupid to be THIS nervous over a show where no one gets eliminated. but we’re all here for different reasons you know?

*stretched out in a split in the corner, my eyes keep following the pacing girl back and forth*
Hey
*not usually one to be too loud or outspoken, I can still recognize the stage scaries when I see them*
It's normal to be nervous - means you care about the thing. It's cool to care.

oh man. its okay, it's just nerves. you do this for a literally living
/ she paces back and forth along the length of the backstage area hall. her eyes glued to the TV screen as trainee after trainee enters and leaves the stage